A sudden deep ripple of awareness went through me as it was made divinely clear to me that I was going to be held to my sworn out oath of willingness to change and experience a man's headship over me.

I pressed a tightly clamped fist to my lips as I stared out the window in sudden panic of thought. Such an awareness feeling could only mean that what I'd sworn to would likely happen!

Oh God!

I should never have sworn to such a thing and yet it had seemed the right thing to do in my effort to turn my life around from the sorry place I'd taken it. It had been the right thing to do.

"Oh God help me!" I cried out softly against my knuckles in extreme fear of the future.

Peace seemed to hit me with a force that had me laying my head back against the seat on the verge of falling asleep, which soon became a reality.