Another choked scream made Caden struggle to his feet. Lucan again had his fingers wrapped tightly around Ankas throat. As before, she clutched Lucan to her, rather than shoving him away. Did she want to die?
Caden pulled his mobile phone from his belt, Bram on ready speed dial.
Help is on the way, Sydney said through a cloud of white smoke. Sabelle gave me one of those enchanted rock things. Ive just used it.
That impulsiveness and acceptance of magic might get her into trouble on occasion, but right now it just might save the day. He tucked the phone away, then crept toward his brother.
It was up to him to stop another tragedy, another loss.
Lucan, he murmured, panic invading his bones. God, he had to stop this. Lucan would never forgive himself if he killed Anka. Youre hurting Anka. Remember Anka? Your mate.
Lucans face turned more feral. Shock Denzell!
What did Shock have to do with Anka nearly gasping her last breath?
With that growl, Lucans fingers again tightened on Ankas neck. Sydney stepped in, and Caden thrust out an arm to hold her back. He was about to have a tragedy on his hands. He didnt need two.
No. Anka. Your Anka, he insisted. Let her go.
Still, the little witch beneath him gripped Lucan tightly and trembled, even as her face turned red and her eyes began to roll back in her head.
Caden grabbed Lucans wrists, but couldnt pry them apart. Anka drew in a wheezing gasp of a breathand brought Lucan closer to her. Caden tried to wedge himself between them, but both were frozen into place by determination, emotion, and that blasted magic.
Suddenly, Lucan stiffened. His eyes flew open wide as Anka melted beneath him, either unconscious or . . .
Dear God, no.
The expression on Lucans face mirrored that thought. Caden could see the whites of his brothers eyes for the first time in a month. He focused as if he could actually see.
As if scalded, Lucan ripped his hands from Ankas neck and sucked in a panicked gasp.
Caden rushed closer. Check Anka or restrain Lucan first? Ask questions or just start performing CPR and hope Lucan didnt kill him?
His brother saved him from answering that question by rasping out, What have I done?
Then he promptly melted into unconsciousness.
CHAPTER EIGHTEEN
CADEN STARED AT HIS brother, who sat on the couch in his family room, cradling his head in his hands. Lucan was alive and lucid . . . and broken.
If Caden had needed more proof of magics capricious nature, hed gotten it today.
He didnt ask Lucan if he was all right. Such a stupid question. Caden knew the answer. How did a man face the sort of stunning twist of fate magic had forced Lucan to suffer today, nearly strangling his beloved wife?
Sabelle had arrived in Lucans bedroom, Bram, Duke, and Ice hot on her heels. Quickly, theyd surmised that Lucan had entered a healthy, restorative sleep. Anka, though pale as death, had depleted her energy.
While Lucan had been trying to kill her, shed been holding onto him with every ounce of her energy, bravely fighting certain death to perform the helbresele spell. To heal his mate mourning. She had drained herself and nearly died in the process.
The good news was, Lucan came around quickly and assessed the damage, thrilled to have his mate back. An elated Lucan had curled his body protectively over Ankas, chanting his apology against her lips over and over. He clung to her, trying to share a bit of his energy with her with simple touches. It worked. The bad news? The first person Anka asked for was Shock.
Caden couldnt forget the way Lucan had staggered back, his guilt morphing, blending with betrayal.
Lucan had sat back on the bed, his face sharp with pain. Thats why you smell like Shock. Youve been with him.
Ankas amber eyes welled up with tears, and the terrible truth became clear before she said a word.
I didnt remember you, she whispered. I stayed with my human cousin, Aquarius. I hoped Mathias would never think to look for me there, in case he wished to torment me further. I remembered almost nothing about myself or my life.
Caden had gone to his brothers side and braced his hand on Lucans shoulder in silent support. He wanted to be angry with Anka for hurting his brother, putting him through so much, and now betraying Lucan with his greatest enemy. But her sweet face and bowed mouth crumbled into pain and fear and anguish. Shed been through a great deal, too.
Looking back on the incident three hours later, Caden worried. Despite the fact they seemed meant for each other, could all ever be well between them again? Or had blasted magic ruined something wonderful forever?
He already knew the answer to that question for him and Sydney.
But you remembered Shock. Lucan had tensed beneath Cadens palm. Before you recalled me.
Anka then nodded, and fresh tears fell unimpeded down her pale cheeks. Once Mathias broke our bond, I remembered nothing. I suspected Id been mated, but I was weak and needed energy. I remembered Shocks Call.
Lucan looked away, clenching his jaw. Caden was certain that his brother was picturing his wife and his enemy embracing. Sharing pleasure. He hurt for Lucan. Imagining Sydney with another man was like an open wound in Cadens gut.
No one else in the room said a word.
Drawing a few deep breaths, Lucan finally turned back to his former mate. You remember me now. Come home.
Im not the same woman, the exhausted witch said sadly.
You no longer need Shock anymore. You have me.
Anka gathered her strength and grasped Lucans hand. I do need him. Everything between you and me is a treasured memory. But I need time . . . I cant simply step back into my old life and be the same woman I was.
Lucan grabbed her shoulders. Because I failed to protect you?
She barely managed to shake her head as tears threatened to overtake her. What Mathias did to me changed me. I cant just . . . be happy again. I dont know what I want, what to believe.
You dont have to. He squeezed her hands tight. Ill heal you.
I dont deserve you. You dont know what I did with him. Her eyes squeezed shut as shame washed over her.
Against your will!
It started that way. But then . . . She squeezed her eyes shut as tears streamed down. I begged him.
Lucan swallowed. He compelled you. Dont think for a second that I fault you. I left you unprotected, and Mathias abducted you. I love you
She withdrew from his grasp. Dont. I came to see you as soon as I remembered. Im sorry for the way our mating ended. I wanted to make certain you werent suffering.
Without you? Every day. I have no one to blame but myself for Lucan choked on his next words. For Mathias violating you.
He hurt you, too, she breathed, her eyes nearly closing as her energy waned. Until today, I never imagined how deeply. Had to perform the helbresele spell.
Her eyes slid shut.