“You’re not coming with me?”
His eyebrows pulled together. “I have a job to do, Ellie. You have to go home.”
My eyes filled with tears. “I don’t have anywhere to go.”
He reached into his pocket and pulled out a single key, the light glinting off the silver. “Lone Tree Village in Estes. 111 F. We’re never there, so it’s mostly storage. I’m not even sure if there are sheets on my bed. It’s not a penthouse, but it’s a place to stay. My bedroom is the last door on the left.”
I took the key, sniffing. “Tyler…”
“Just … take it,” he said. “I’ll be home in a couple of weeks. We can figure it out then.” He stepped back, waving to me before turning for the elevator.
“I thought you were supposed to make sure I get in the car?” I asked.
He stopped in his tracks but didn’t turn around. “I’m sorry. I don’t think I can watch you leave.”
My bottom lip trembled, and I held the key to the sensor, hearing the lock click before I pressed down on the handle and pushed through. My clothes were still laid out, ready to go, but I would be lucky to ever get to go on a call again.
The wall felt cold against my back as I slid down the scuffed white paint to the aged orange and brown carpet. My phone buzzed, and I held it to my ear.
“Ellie?” Jojo said.
I covered my face with my hand. “I fucked up, Jojo,” I said, pressing my lips together to stifle a sob.
“You’re right. You did. Now you need to pack your things and get right back on the wagon. Do you hear me?”
“Do I still have a job?”
“You know you do. I’m not saying what you did is okay, but it’s an uphill battle. You lost this one. Come home, and let’s start preparing for the next one.”
My face crumbled, and I took in a deep breath. “I don’t deserve it, but thank you,” I whispered.
“Hang up, pack, and get downstairs. The car will be there soon. When you get home, go straight to bed and I’ll pick you up for work first thing in the morning. Got it?”
“Got it.”
“Stand up. Clean slate starts now.”
I took a deep breath, simultaneously standing and pressing END. It didn’t take long to pack the few things I’d laid out, and then I was out the door, taking the stairs instead of the elevator.
Darby dropped the marker she was using for her newest doodle masterpiece, and stood up. “Ellie? Are you okay?”
I paused at her desk, placing my key card in front of her. “Yeah. I have to leave.”
“You have to? Why?”
“I screwed up. I’m being sent home.”
Darby shook her head in disbelief even when she’d heard it from me. “Screwed up how? Just because you were drinking?”
“It’s a long story,” I said. “Trex can explain it to you.”
“If you ever come back … be sure to stop by and say hi.”
I smiled. “I will.”
A man older than my father, who dressed like a Baptist preacher and smelled like cheap aftershave, offered a contrived smile before taking my backpack. The cowlick on the top of his white hair was misbehaving, despite what looked like a quarter cup of gel he’d combed through it.
I waited for him to open the door, but he opened the trunk and threw in my bag. I opened the door myself, thinking the sticky carpet and trash tucked in the back of the passenger seat was the perfect ride for a woman who’d just left county jail.
The two and half hours to Estes Park seemed especially long when having to breathe in the smell of mothballs and possibly a fart or two. When we reached city limits, the driver turned his head while still keeping his eyes on the road.
“Do you have an address?”
“Lone Tree Village. Building F.”
He sighed. “Do you have an address?”
“Hang on,” I said, looking through my phone. “Thirteen-ten Manford Avenue.”
The driver poked at his GPS and then sat back, resuming his mission to ignore me.
We passed through a part of town I was unfamiliar with, and then turned onto a side road, driving for another two minutes. The Lone Tree Village sign made me feel excited for half a second, but then I remembered most of the things I’d taken from my parents were still at the Alpine barracks, and all that I had was inside my backpack.
The driver drove straight to the back where Tyler’s building sat. He rounded the back and then pulled into the first free parking space he found.
I stepped out onto the asphalt and waited for the driver to fetch my backpack. He handed it to me and turned for his door.
“Excuse me?” I said, following him.
He turned, annoyed. “It’s been taken care of.”
“Oh,” I said, watching him open the door and sit behind the wheel. I took a step back when he reversed, watching him drive away and then looking up at building F.
111 was upstairs, so I climbed the first set, turned at the landing, and climbed another. Some of the clay-colored slats of the vinyl siding were missing, but it was in a nice neighborhood and the outside lawn was manicured—not that I was in any position to be fussy.
I pulled Tyler’s key from my pocket and twisted it in the bolt lock. The mechanism clicked, and my heart began to pound. Standing in front of Tyler’s apartment, preparing to enter his personal space for the first time without him there, felt wrong.
The knob felt cold and unwelcoming in my hand, but I twisted it anyway, pushing through the beige door to a living room full of furniture and boxes. Tyler had warned me that the apartment was serving as a storage unit, but there were several stacks, leaving a walkway to a kitchen on the left and a hallway straight ahead.
I followed the path to the hall, feeling along the wall for a light switch. When my fingertips touched the toggle, I pressed up, illuminating a twenty-foot-long hall with eggshell walls and beige carpet—two doors on the right, and one on the left. I pushed through the closest to find a bathroom. I dropped my backpack and quickly unbuttoned my jeans, shoving them down to my knees, sitting on the cold toilet seat and moaning as I relieved myself for the first time in almost twelve hours.
The faucet took a while to offer warm water. I looked around before resorting to drying my hands on my jeans. I gripped the edge of the sink as I tried to wait out the nausea and dizziness overwhelming me. I breathed in and was instantly comforted—the apartment smelled like Tyler.