Temperance reached out and did something she never would have done had he been in his right senses: She gently stroked back his beautiful silver-white hair from his forehead. It was soft, almost silken, beneath her fingers.
“And what did you tell her?”
His sapphire eyes suddenly opened wide, looking as lucid, as calm, as they had the day before he was hurt. “I told her to go away, and she did. She caught a fever not soon afterward and died. She was five and I was ten. Do not endow me with romantic virtue, Mrs. Dews. I have none.”
She held his gaze for a moment, wanting to argue the point, wanting to comfort a little boy who’d lost his younger sister so long ago. But she straightened instead, withdrawing her hand from his hair. “I’m going to bathe your wound with strong spirits. It will hurt a great deal.”
He smiled almost sweetly. “Of course.”
And somehow, with the help of Small, she accomplished the horrible job. She bathed his wound in brandy, dried it, and dressed it once again, all the while conscious that she was causing him excruciating pain. By the time she’d finished, Lord Caire was breathing heavily under his covers, unconscious. Small looked disheveled, and Temperance was fighting sleep.
“That’s done at least,” she whispered wearily as she helped the manservant gather the soiled cloths.
“Thank you, ma’am,” the little valet said. He darted a worried glance at the bed and its inhabitant. “I don’t know what we would’ve done without you tonight.”
“He is something of a handful, isn’t he?”
“Indeed, ma’am.” The manservant’s words were fervent. “Would you like me to have the maids make up a room for you?”
“I should go home.” Temperance stared at Lord Caire. His face was still red, and though she’d washed his brow, it was beaded with sweat again.
“If you’ll pardon me, ma’am,” Small said. “He might need you in the night, and in any case it’s very late for a lady to be traveling out alone.”
“’Tis, isn’t it?” she murmured, grateful for the excuse.
“I’ll have Cook make a tray for you,” Small said.
“Thank you,” Temperance replied as the manservant slipped from the room. She sank into a tall chair pulled close to the bed and propped her head against her fist, meaning to merely rest her eyes while the little valet fetched her supper.
When Temperance next woke, the fire had died low on the grate. Only a single guttering candle on the bedside table gave light to the room. She stretched a little, wincing at the ache in her neck and shoulders from having slept in such an awkward position, and glanced at the bed. Somehow she wasn’t surprised to find glittering blue eyes watching her.
“What was he like,” Lord Caire asked softly, “your paragon of a husband?”
She knew she should refuse to answer him, that the question was far too personal, but somehow, here in the depths of night, it seemed reasonable and right.
“He was tall, with dark hair,” she whispered, remembering that long-ago face. It had been so familiar once and was so faded now. She closed her eyes, concentrating. It seemed so wrong to forget Benjamin and all he was. “His eyes were a lovely dark brown. He had a scar on his chin from a fall as a boy, and he had a way of stretching his fingers and gesturing with his hands when he talked that seemed elegant to me. He was very intelligent, very proper, and very kind.”
“How ghastly,” he said. “He sounds a prig.”
“He wasn’t.”
“Did he make you laugh?” he asked quietly, his voice roughened from sleep or pain. “Did he whisper things in your ear that made you blush? Did his touch send shivers down your back?”
She inhaled sharply at his rude, too-personal questions.
But he continued, his voice impossibly deep now. “Did you grow wet when he looked at you?”
“Stop it!” she cried, her voice loud in the room. “Please, stop it.”
Caire merely watched her, his eyes much too knowing, as if he knew she’d grown wet—but at his look, not at the old memories of her husband.
She inhaled. “He was a good man—a wonderful man—and I didn’t deserve him.”
Lord Caire closed his eyes and for a moment seemed to have fallen asleep. Then he murmured, “I’ve never been married, but I think it would be quite awful to have to deserve one’s spouse.”
She looked away from him. This subject made her chest ache, brought a depressing melancholy to her brain.
“Were you in love with him,” Lord Caire asked, “this husband you didn’t deserve?”
And whether it was because she still half drifted in dreams or because they were curiously intimate in the near dark, she answered truthfully. “No. I loved him, but I was never in love with him.”
The room suddenly brightened, all at once it seemed, and she realized that the dawn had arrived unnoticed while they talked.
“It’s a new day,” Temperance said stupidly.
“Yes, it is,” Lord Caire replied, and the satisfaction in his voice made her shiver.
Chapter Eight
Well! This was a very unfortunate turn of events for poor Meg, for the dungeons of King Lockedheart were not very pleasant. The walls dripped with fetid water, and rats and other vermin skittered across the corridors. There was no light and no heat, and in the distance could be heard the cries of the other sad inhabitants of that place. Things looked very desperate, but as Meg had never had it very easy in her life, she resolved to face this crisis with as much bravery as she could summon.
And she vowed as well that whatever happened, she would tell nothing but the truth….
—from King Lockedheart
Temperance rode home in Lord Caire’s carriage as the new day dawned on London. She fell asleep during the journey, waking only when the carriage halted at the end of Maiden Lane. In fact, she was so exhausted from tending Caire that the consequences of a night spent away from home never even occurred to her until they descended like a great heavy boulder on her head when she entered the home.
“Where,” Concord, her eldest brother, inquired in a deeply disapproving voice, “have you been?”