"I don't think of Islanders as Mutes," she said. "You are humans whose lives are important and whose value to us all should be obvious."
"But you said yourself that there are Mermen who don't agree," he said.
"Most Mermen don't know the particular problems Islanders face. You must admit, Ward, that much of your work force is ineffective ... through no fault of your own, of course."
How subtle, he thought. Almost euphemistic.
"Then what is our 'obvious value'?"
"Ward, each of us has approached a common problem - survival on this planet - in somewhat different ways. Down here, we compost for methane and to gain soil for the time when we'll have to plant the land."
"Diverting energy from the life cycle?"
"Delaying," she insisted. "Land is far more stable when plants hold it down. We'll need fertile soil."
"Methane," he muttered. He forgot what point he was going to make in the wake of the new illumination dawning on him. "You want our hydrogen facilities!"
Her eyes went wide at the quickness of his mind.
"We need the hydrogen to get into space," she said.
"And we need it for cooking, heating and driving our few engines," he countered.
"You have methane, too."
"Not enough."
"We separate hydrogen electronically and -"
"Not very efficient," he said. He tried to keep the pride out of his voice, but it leaked through all the same.
"You use those beautiful separation membranes and the high pressure of deep water," she said.
"Score one for organics."
"But organics are not the best way to build a whole technology," she said. "Look how it's bogged you down. Your technology should support and protect you, help you to progress."
"That was argued out generations ago," he said. "Islanders know what you think about organics."
"That argument is not over," she insisted. "And with the hyb tanks ..."
"You're coming to us, now," he said, "because we have a way with tissues." He allowed himself a tight smile. "And I note that you also come to us for the most delicate surgery."
"We understand that organics once represented the most convenient way for you to survive topside," she said. "But times are changing and we -"
"You are changing them," he challenged. He backed off at the frustration visible in her clenched jaw, noting the flash of something bright in her blue eyes. "Times are always changing," he said, his voice softer. "The question remains: How do we best adapt to change?"
"It requires all of your energies just to maintain yourselves and your organics," she snapped, not softening. "Islands starve sometimes. But we do not starve. And within a generation we will walk beneath open sky on dry land!"
Keel shrugged. The shrug irritated the prosthetic supports for his large head. He could feel his neck muscles growing tired, snaking their whips of pain up the back of his neck, crowning his scalp.
"What do you think of that old argument in light of this change?" she asked. It was voiced as a challenge.
"You are creating sea barriers, new surflines that can sink Islands," he said. "You do this to further a Merman way of life. An Islander would be foolish not to ask whether you're doing this to sink the Islands and drown us Mutes."
"Ward." She shook her head before continuing. "Ward, the end of Island life as you know it will come in our lifetime. That's not necessarily bad."
Not in my lifetime, he thought.
"Don't you understand that?" she demanded.
"You want me to facilitate your kind of change," he said. "That makes me the Judas goat. You know about Judas, Kareen? And goats?"
A shadow of unmistakable impatience crossed her face. "I'm trying to impress on you how soon Islanders must change. That is a fact and it must be dealt with, distasteful or not."
"You're also trying to get our hydrogen facilities," he said.
"I'm trying to keep you above our Merman political squabbles," she said.
"Somehow, Kareen, I don't have confidence in you. I suspect that you don't have the approval of your own people."
"I've had enough of this," Panille interrupted. "I warned you, Kareen, that an Islander -"
"Let me handle this," she said, and quieted him with a lift of her hand. "If it's a mistake, it's my mistake." To Keel, she said, "Can you find confidence in retrieving the hyb tanks or settling the land? Can you see the value in restoring the kelp to consciousness?"
It's an act, he thought. She's playing to me. Or to Shadow.
"To what end and by what means?" he asked, stalling for more time.
"To what end? We'll finally have some real stability. All of us. It's something that'll pull all of us together."
She seems so cool, so smooth, he thought. But something's not quite right.
"What're your priorities?" he asked. "The kelp, the land or the hyb tanks?"
"My people want the hyb tanks."
"Who are your people?"
She looked at Panille, who said, "A majority, that's who her people are. That's how we operate down under."
Keel looked down at him. "And what are your priorities, Shadow?"
"Personally?" His eyes left the screen reluctantly. "The kelp. Without it this planet's an endless struggle for survival." He gestured to the screens, which, Keel reminded himself, somehow had Islander lives balancing on them. "You saw what it can do," Panille said. "Right now it's keeping Vashon in deep water. That's handy. It's survival."
"You think that's a sure thing?"
"I do. We have everything that was recovered from the old Redoubt after the inundation. We've a good idea what's in the hyb tanks. They can wait."
Keel looked at Ale. "Sure, things worry me. I know what's supposed to be in those tanks. What do your records say?"
"We have every reason to believe the hyb tanks contain earthside plant and animal life, everything Ship considered necessary for colonization. And there may be as many as thirty thousand human beings - all preserved indefinitely."
Keel snorted at the phrase "every reason to believe." They don't know after all, he thought. This is a blind shot. He looked up at the ceiling, thinking of those bits of plasteel and plaz and all that flesh swinging in a wide loop around Pandora, year after year.
"There could be anything up there," Keel said. "Anything." He knew it was fear speaking. He looked accusingly at Ale. "You claim to represent a majority of Mermen, yet I sense a furtiveness in your activities."
"There are political sensitivities -" She broke off. "Ward, our space project will continue whether I'm successful with you or not."
"Successful? With me?" There seemed to be no end to her manipulative schemes.
Ale exhaled, more of a hiss than a sigh. "If I fail, Ward, the chances for the Islanders look bad. We want to start a civilization, not a war. Don't you understand? We're offering the Islanders land for colonization."
"Ahhhh, the bait!" he said.
Keel thought about the impact such an offer might have on Islanders. Many would leap at it - the poor Islanders, such as those of Guemes, the little drifters living from sea to mouth. Vashon might be another matter. But Merman riches were being exposed in this offer. Many Islanders harbored deep feelings of jealousy over those riches. It would worsen. The complexity of what Ale proposed began to lay itself out in his mind - a problem to solve.
"I need information," he said. "How close are you to going into space?"
"Shadow," Ale said.
Panille punched keys on his console. The screen in front of him displayed a pair of images with a dividing line down the middle. On the left was an underwater view of a tower,- its dimensions not clear to Keel until he realized that the tiny shapes around it were not fish, but Mermen workers. The view on the right showed the tower protruding from the sea and, with the proportions clear from the left screen, Keel realized that the thing must lift fifty meters above the surface.
"There will be one space launch today or tomorrow, depending on the weather," Ale said. "A test, our first manned shot. It won't be long after that when we go up after the hyb tanks."
"Why has no Island reported that thing?" Keel asked.
"We steer you away from it," Panille said with a shrug.
Keel shook his aching head.
"This explains the sightings you've heard of, the Islander claims that Ship is returning," Ale said.
"How amusing for you!" Keel blurted. "The simple Islanders with their primitive superstitions." He glared at her. "You know some of my people are claiming your rockets as a sign the world is ending. If you'd only brought the C/P into this ..."
"It was a bad decision," she said. "We admit it. That's why you're here. What do we do about it?"
Keel scratched his head. His neck ached abominably against the prosthetic braces. He sensed things between the lines here ... Panille coming in on cue. Ale saying mostly what she had planned to say. Keel was an old political in-fighter, though, aware that he could not tip his hand too soon. Ale wanted him to learn things - things she had planned for him to learn. It was the concealed lesson that he was after.
"How do we make Islanders comfortable with the truth?" Keel countered.
"We don't have time for Islander philosophizing," she said.
Keel bristled. "That's just another way of calling us lazy. Just staying alive occupies most of us full-time. You think we're not busy because we're not building rockets. We're the ones who don't have time. We don't have time for pretty phrases and planning -"
"Stop it!" she snapped. "If the two of us can't get along, how can we expect better of our people?"
Keel turned his head to look at her with one eye and then with the other. He suppressed a smile. Two things amused him. She had a point, and she could lose her composure. He lifted both hands and rubbed at his neck.
Ale was instantly solicitous, aware of Keel's problem from their many encounters on the debate floor. "You're tired," she said. "Would you like to rest and have a cup of coffee or something more solid?"
"A good cup of Vashon's best would suit me," he said. He tugged at the prosthetic on his right. "And this damned thing off my neck for a while. You wouldn't happen to have a chairdog, would you?"
"Organics are rare down under," she said. "I'm afraid we can't provide Islander comforts for everything."
"I just wanted a massage," he said. "Mermen are missing a bet by not having a few chairdogs."
"I'm sure we can find you a massage," Kareen said.
"We don't have the high incidence of health problems that you have topside," Panille interrupted. Again, his eyes were on the screen filled with numbers and he spoke almost out of another consciousness. Still, Keel couldn't let the remark pass.
"Young man," he said, "I suspect you are brilliant in your work. Don't let the confidence of that accomplishment spill over into other areas. You have a great deal yet to learn."
Turning to lean on Ale's arm, he allowed himself to be assisted out into the passageway, feeling the stares that followed them. He was glad to get out of that room. Something about it wriggled chills up and down his spine.
"Have I convinced you?" Ale asked. He shuffled along beside her, his legs aching, his head filled with bits of information that he knew would soon inflict themselves upon his people.
"You have convinced me that Mermen will do this thing," he said. "You have the wealth, the organization, the determination." He lurched and caught himself. "I'm not used to decks that don't roll," he explained. "Living on land is hard for an old-timer."
"Everyone can't go onto the land at once," she said. "Only the most needy at first. We think other Islands will have to be moored offshore ... or rafts may be built for such nearby moorage. They'll be temporary living quarters until the agricultural system is well along."
Keel thought about this a moment, then: "You have been thinking this out for a long time."
"We have."
"Organizing Islanders' lives for them and -"
"Trying to figure out how to save the lot of you!"
"Oh?" He laughed. "By putting us on bedroom rafts near shore?"
"They'd be ideal," she said. He could see a genuine excitement in her eyes. "As the need for them vanished, we could let them die off and use them for fertilizers."
"Our Islands, too, no doubt - fertilizer."
"That's about all they'll be good for when we have enough open land."
Keel could not keep the bitterness out of his voice. "You do not understand, Kareen. I can see that. An Island is not a dead piece of ... of land. It's alive! It is our mother. It supports us because we give it loving care. You are condemning our mother to a bag of fertilizer."
She stared at him a moment, then: "You seem to think Islanders are the only ones giving up a way of life. Those of us who go back to the surface -"
"Will still have access to the deeps," he said. "You are not cutting the umbilical cord. We would suffer more in the transition. You seem willing to ignore this."
"I'm not ignoring it, dammit! That's why you're here."
Time to end the sparring, he thought. Time to show her that I don't really trust her or believe her.
"You're hiding things from me," he said. "I've studied you for a long time, Kareen. There's something boiling in you, something big and important. You're trying to control what I learn, feeding me selected information to gain my cooperation. You -"
"Ward, I -"
"Don't interrupt. The quickest way to gain my cooperation is to open up, share everything with me. I will help if that's what should be done. I will not help, I will resist, if I feel you are concealing anything from me."
She stopped them at a dogged hatch and stared at it without focusing.
"You know me, Kareen," he prompted. "I say what I mean. I will fight you. I will leave ... unless you restrain me ... and I will campaign against -"
"All right!" She glared up at him. "Restrain you? I wouldn't dare consider it. Others might, but I would not. You want me to share? Very well. The bad trouble has already started, Ward. Guemes Island is under the waves."
He blinked, as if blinking would clear away the force of what she'd said.
An entire Island, under the waves! "So," he growled, "your precious current controls didn't work. You've driven an Island onto -"
"No." She shook her head for emphasis. "No! No! Someone has done it deliberately. It had nothing to do with Current Control. It was a cruel, vicious act of destruction."
"Who?" He spoke the word in a low, shocked voice.
"We don't know yet. But there are thousands of casualties and we're still picking up survivors." She turned and undogged the hatch. Keel saw the first signs of age in her slow movements.
She's still holding something back, he thought as he followed her into her quarters.
Humans spend their lives in mazes. If they escape and cannot find another maze, they create one. What is this passion for testing?
-"Questions from the Avata," the Histories
Duque began to curse, rolling in the nutrient bath and pounding his fists against the organic sides until great blue stains appeared along the edge.
The guardians summoned the C/P.
It was late and Simone Rocksack had been preparing for bed. At the summons, Simone pulled her favorite robe over her head and let it drop over the firm curves of her breasts and hips. The robe in its purple dignity erased all but the slightest traces of womanliness from her bearing. She hurried down the passage from her quarters, pulling at her robe to restore some of its daytime crispness. She entered the gloomy space where Vata and Duque existed. Her anxiety was obvious in every moment. Kneeling above Duque, she said: "I am here, Duque. It is the Chaplain/Psychiatrist. How can I help you?"
"Help me?" Duque screamed. "You wart on the rump of a pregnant sow! You can't even help yourself!"
Shocked, the C/P put a hand over the flap covering her mouth. She knew what a sow was, of course - one of the creatures of Ship, a female swine. This she remembered well.
A pregnant sow?
Simone Rocksack's slender fingers couldn't help pressing against the smooth flatness of her abdomen.
"The only swine are in the hyb tanks," she said. She concentrated on keeping her voice loud enough for Duque to hear.
"So you think!"
"Why are you cursing?" the C/P asked. She tried to keep a proper reverence in her tone.
"Vata's dreaming me into terrible things," Duque moaned. "Her hair ... it's all over the ocean and she's breaking me into little pieces."
The C/P stared at Duque. Most of his form was a blurred hulk under the nutrient. His lips sought the surface like a bloated carp. He seemed to be all in one piece.
"I don't understand," she said. "You appear intact."
"Haven't I told you she dreams me?" Duque moaned. "Dreams hurt if you can't get out. I'll drown down there. Every little piece of me will drown."
"You're not drowning, Duque," the C/P assured.
"Not here, baboon. In the sea!"
Baboon, she thought. That was another creature from Ship. Why was Duque recalling the creatures of Ship? Were they at last coming down? But how could he know? She lifted her gaze to the fearful watchers around the rim of the organic tank. Could one of them ... ? No, it was impossible.
His voice suddenly clear and extremely articulate, Duque proclaimed, "She won't listen. They're talking and she won't listen."
"Who won't listen, Duque? Who are 'they'?"
"Her hair! Haven't you heard a thing I've said?" He pounded a fist weakly against the tank side below the C/P. She stroked her abdomen again, absently.
"Are the creatures from Ship to be brought down to Pandora?" Rocksack asked.
"Take them where you want," Duque said. "Just don't let her dream me back into the sea."
"Does Vata wish to return to the sea?"
"She's dreaming me, I tell you. She's dreaming me away."
"Are Vata's dreams reality?"
Duque refused to answer. He merely groaned and twisted at the edge of the tank.
Rocksack sighed. She stared across the tank at the mounded bulk of Vata, quiescent ... breathing. Vata's long hair moved like seaweed in the currents of Duque's disturbance. How could Vata's hair be in the ocean and here on Vashon simultaneously? Perhaps in dreams. Was this another miracle of Ship? Vata's hair was almost long enough to be cut once more, it had been over a year. Was all of that hair that had been cut from Vata ... was all of it somehow still attached to Vata? Nothing was impossible in the realm of miracles.
But how could Vata's hair speak?
There was no mistaking what Duque had said. Vata's hair spoke and Vata would not listen. Why would Vata not listen? Was it too soon to return to the sea? Was this a warning that Vata would lead them all back into the sea?
Again, Rocksack sighed. The Chaplain/Psychiatrist's job could be troublesome. Terrible demands were made upon her. Word of this would be out by morning. There was no way to silence the guardians. Rumors, distorted stories. Some interpretation would have to be made, something firm and supportive. Something good enough to silence dangerous speculations.
She stood, grimacing at a pain in her right knee. Looking at the awed faces around the tank's rim, she said, "The next lot of Vata's hair will not go to the faithful. Every clipping must be cast into the sea as an offering."
Below her, Duque groaned, then quite clearly he shouted, "Bitch! Bitch! Bitch!"
Rocksack placed this reference immediately, having been prepared by Duque's previous mutterings. Bitch was the female of the canine family. Great things were in store for Pandora, the C/P realized. Vata was dreaming Duque into wondrous experiences and Duque was calling forth the creatures of Ship.
Looking once more at the awed guardians, Rocksack explained this carefully. She was pleased by the way heads nodded agreement.
All Pandorans will be free when the first hylighter breaks the sea's surface.
- Sign over a Merman kelp project
Five water��drum tones sounded a musical call, pulling Brett up ... up ... lifting him out of a dream in which he reached for Scudi Wang but never quite touched her. Always, he fell back into the depths as he had sunk when the wavewall swept him off Vashon.
Brett opened his eyes and recognized Scudi's room. There were no lights, but his light-gathering eyes discerned her hand across the short distance between their beds. The hand reached out from the covers and groped sleepily up the wall toward the light switch.
"It's a little higher and to the right," he said.
"You can see?" There was puzzlement in her voice. Her hand stopped its groping and found the switch. Brilliance washed the room. He sucked a deep breath, let it out slowly and rubbed his eyes. The light hurt him all the way out to the temples.
Scudi sat upright on her bed, the blankets pulled loosely around her breasts. "You can see in the dark?" she persisted.
He nodded. "Sometimes it's handy."
"Then modesty is not as, strict with you as I thought." She slipped from the covers and dressed in a singlesuit striped vertically in yellow and green. Brett tried not to watch her dress, but his eyes no longer would obey.
"I check instruments in a half-hour," she said. "Then I ride outpost."
"What should I do about ... you know, checking in?"
"I have reported. I should be finished in a few hours. Don't go wandering; you could get lost."
"I need a guide?"
"A friend," she said. Again, that quick smile. "If hunger strikes, there is food." She pointed toward the alcove end of her quarters. "When I get back, you will report in. Or they may send someone for you."
He glanced around the room, feeling that it would shrink without Scudi here and with nothing to do.