'I've never known Uncle Nicholas other than "very poorly,"' mused
Soames, 'or seen him look other than everlasting. What a family! Judging
by him, I've got thirty-eight years of health before me. Well, I'm not
going to waste them.' And going over to a mirror he stood looking at
his face. Except for a line or two, and three or four grey hairs in his
little dark moustache, had he aged any more than Irene? The prime of
life--he and she in the very prime of life! And a fantastic thought shot
into his mind. Absurd! Idiotic! But again it came. And genuinely alarmed
by the recurrence, as one is by the second fit of shivering which
presages a feverish cold, he sat down on the weighing machine. Eleven
stone! He had not varied two pounds in twenty years. What age was
she? Nearly thirty-seven--not too old to have a child--not at all!
Thirty-seven on the ninth of next month. He remembered her birthday
well--he had always observed it religiously, even that last birthday so
soon before she left him, when he was almost certain she was faithless.
Four birthdays in his house. He had looked forward to them, because his
gifts had meant a semblance of gratitude, a certain attempt at warmth.
Except, indeed, that last birthday--which had tempted him to be too
religious! And he shied away in thought. Memory heaps dead leaves on
corpse-like deeds, from under which they do but vaguely offend the
sense. And then he thought suddenly: 'I could send her a present for her
birthday. After all, we're Christians! Couldn't!--couldn't we join
up again!' And he uttered a deep sigh sitting there. Annette! Ah! but
between him and Annette was the need for that wretched divorce suit! And
how?
"A man can always work these things, if he'll take it on himself,"
Jolyon had said.
But why should he take the scandal on himself with his whole career as
a pillar of the law at stake? It was not fair! It was quixotic! Twelve
years' separation in which he had taken no steps to free himself put out
of court the possibility of using her conduct with Bosinney as a ground
for divorcing her. By doing nothing to secure relief he had acquiesced,
even if the evidence could now be gathered, which was more than
doubtful. Besides, his own pride would never let him use that old
incident, he had suffered from it too much. No! Nothing but fresh
misconduct on her part--but she had denied it; and--almost--he had
believed her. Hung up! Utterly hung up!
He rose from the scooped-out red velvet seat with a feeling of
constriction about his vitals. He would never sleep with this going on
in him! And, taking coat and hat again, he went out, moving eastward.
In Trafalgar Square he became aware of some special commotion travelling
towards him out of the mouth of the Strand. It materialised in newspaper
men calling out so loudly that no words whatever could be heard. He
stopped to listen, and one came by.