Not unusually, when we burn our bridges, we have in the back of our

minds the dim hope that there may be a shallow ford somewhere. Thus,

bridges should not be burned impulsively; there may be no ford.

The idea of retreat pushed forward in Kitty's mind the moment she awoke;

but she pressed it back in shame. She had given her word, and she would

stand by it.

The night had been a series of wild impulses. She had not sent that

telegram to Cutty as the result of her deliberations in the country.

Impulse; a flash, and the thing was done, her bridges burned. To crush

Johnny Two-Hawks, fill his cup with chagrin, she had told him she was

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going to marry Cutty. That was the milk in the cocoanut. Morning has a

way of showing up night-gold for what it is--tinsel. Kitty saw the stage

of last night's drama dismantled. If there was a shallow ford, she would

never lower her pride to seek it. She had told Two-Hawks, sent that wire

to Cutty, broke the news to Bernini.

But did she really want to go back? Not to know her own mind, to swing

back and forth like a pendulum! Was it because she feared that, having

married Cutty, she might actually fall in love with some other man

later? She could still go through the mummery as Cutty had planned; but

what about all the sublime generosity of the preceding night?

A queer feeling pervaded her: She was a marionette, a human manikin,

and some invisible hand was pulling the wires that made her do all

these absurd things. Her own mind no longer controlled her actions. The

persistence of that waltz! It had haunted her, broken into her dreams,

awakened her out of them. Why should she be afraid? What was there to be

afraid of in a recurring melody? She had heard a dozen famed

violinists play it. It had never before affected her beyond a flash of

emotionalism. Perhaps it was the romantic misfortune of the man, the

mystery surrounding him, the menace which walled him in.

Breakfast. Human manikins had appetites. So she made her breakfast.

Before leaving the kitchen she stopped at the window. The sun filled

the court with brilliant light. The patches of rust on the fire-escape

ladder, which was on the Gregor side of the platform, had the semblance

of powdered gold.

Half an hour later she was speeding downtown to the office. All through

the day she walked, worked, talked as one in the state of trance.

There were periods of stupefaction which at length roused Burlingame's

curiosity.




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