He did not answer.
'You charged him to protect Felisin Younger, didn't you? And he failed. Is he alive? For his own sake, perhaps it is best that he is not.'
'You cannot mean that, Apsalar.'
She closed her eyes. No, I do not mean that. Gods, what am I to do… with this pain? What am I to do?
Cotillion slowly reached up, his hand – the black leather glove removed – nearing the side of her face. She felt his finger brush her cheek, felt the cold thread that was all that was left of the tear he wiped away. A tear she had nor known was there.
'You are frozen,' he said in a soft voice.
She nodded, then shook her head suddenly as everything crumbled inside – and she was in his arms, weeping uncontrollably.
And the god spoke, 'I'll find him, Apsalar. I swear it. I'll find the truth.'
Truths, yes. One after another, one boulder settling down, then another. And another. Blotting out the light, darkness closing in, grit and sand sifting down, a solid silence when the last one is in place. Now, dear fool, try drawing a breath. A single breath.
There were clouds closed fast round the moon. And one by one, gardens died.
Chapter Nineteen
Cruel misapprehension, you choose the shape and cast of this wet clay in your hands, as the wheel ever spins Tempered in granite, this fired shell hardens into the scarred shield of your deeds, and the dark decisions within Settle hidden in suspension, unseen in banded strata awaiting death's weary arrival, the journey's repast to close you out We blind grievers raise you high, honouring all you never were and what rots sealed inside follows you to the grave I stand now among the mourners, displeased by my suspicions as the vessel's dust drifts oh how I despise funerals.
The Secrets of Clay
Panith Fanal His eyes opened in the darkness. Lying motionless, he waited until his mind separated the sounds that had awakened him. Two sources, Barathol decided. One distant, one close at hand. Caution dictated he concentrate on the latter.
Bedclothes rustling, pulled and tugged by adjusting hands, a faint scrape of sandy gravel, then a muted murmur. A long exhaled breath, then some more shifting of positions, until the sounds became rhythmic, and two sets of breathing conjoined.
It was well. Hood knew, Barathol wasn't the one with a chance of easing the haunted look in the Daru's eyes. He then added another silent prayer, that Scillara not damage the man with some future betrayal. If that happened, he suspected Cutter would retreat so far from life there would be no return.
In any case, such matters were out of his hands, and that, too, was well.
And so… the other, more distant sound. A susurration, more patient in its rhythm than the now quickening lovemaking on the opposite side of the smouldering firepit. Like wind stroking treetops… but there were no trees. And no wind.
It is the sea.
Dawn was approaching, paling the eastern sky. Barathol heard Scillara roll to one side, her gasps low but long in settling down. From Cutter, a drawing up of coverings, and he then turned onto one side and moments later fell into sleep once more.
Scillara sat up. Flint and iron, a patter of sparks, as she awakened her pipe. She had used the last of her coins to resupply herself with rustleaf the day before, when they passed a modest caravan working its way inland. The meeting had been sudden, as the parties virtually collided on a bend in the rocky trail. An exchange of wary looks, and something like relief arriving in the faces of the traders.
The plague was broken. Tanno Spiritwalkers had so pronounced it, lifting the self-imposed isolation of the island of Otataral.
But Barathol and his companions were the first living people this troop had encountered since leaving the small, empty village on the coast where their ship had delivered them. The merchants, transporting basic staples from Rutu Jelba, had begun to fear they were entering a ghost land.
Two days of withdrawal for Scillara had had Barathol regretting ever leaving his smithy. Rustleaf and now lovemaking – the woman is at peace once more, thank Hood.
Scillara spoke: 'You want I should prepare breakfast, Barathol?'
He rolled onto his back and sat up, studied her in the faint light.
She shrugged. 'A woman knows. Are you upset?'
'Why would I be?' he replied in a rumble. He looked over at the still motionless form of Cutter. 'Is he truly asleep once more?'
Scillara nodded. 'Most nights he hardly sleeps at all – nightmares, and his fear of them. An added benefit to a roll with him – breaks loose his exhaustion afterwards.'
'I applaud your altruism,' Barathol said, moving closer to the firepit and prodding at the dim coals with the point of his cook-knife. From the gloom to his right, Chaur appeared, smiling.
