For some reason this stops me. I realize what I’m seeing now. Ms. Chancellor doesn’t look like a lawyer addressing a jury. Ms. Chancellor looks like the accused.
“You don’t deny that you were the one who brought Grace Olivia Blakely into the Society?” the British woman says.
Ms. Chancellor pulls her shoulders back. “I do not.”
“And you told her our secrets?”
“I did.”
The British woman shakes her head, as if the truth should be so simple, but Ms. Chancellor is just too stupid or too stubborn to see it. “And yet you did not properly explain to her the essence of a secret sisterhood?”
The women in the risers sneer. Some actually snicker. It’s like the British woman has made an excellent joke, but it’s not really funny, and that part is obvious.
“Eleanor?” she says, prompting.
“Circumstances mitigated,” Ms. Chancellor says.
At last, the woman grows angry. “There is no excuse for—”
“For murder!” I finish for the British woman. “For arson?” I try again. I can’t help it. I’ve been too silent for too long. It’s practically encoded in my DNA. My mother couldn’t leave well enough alone either, so I push through the small break in the risers and go on.
“For hunting innocent people across continents? Really, ma’am, please finish. I’m dying to know what you are going to say.” I stop, then look at the women who fill that lovely, round room. If it weren’t so ironic, I would cry. “Or maybe I’m just dying …”
Dust dances in the streams of multicolored light. It’s like I’ve wandered into a kaleidoscope, a fun house. But this isn’t fun at all.
That’s when I see the prime minister rise. She was seated just out of my sight before, but now it’s impossible to miss her. This time, she’s dressed all in red. Her suit is stark against her snow-white hair.
“Esteemed elders,” the PM says, “it seems our guest is awake. Allow me to introduce Grace Olivia Blakely.”
For a moment, they just study me. In the back, someone whispers, “Just like her mother …”
I want to think she’s talking about my light hair and brown eyes. But more likely she means that I am trouble.
The British lady is no longer scowling at Ms. Chancellor. Her gaze has shifted onto me. “Welcome, Ms. Blakely.”
“Yeah …” I say, not even trying to hide the cynicism in my voice. “I don’t really think you mean that.”
Ms. Chancellor cuts me a warning glance.
“Where am I?” I ask.
The British woman looks around, as if gauging the temperature of the room.
“You are before the Council of Elders.”
“The what?” I ask, but now that I’m used to the room, I’m able to focus on the faces. Many of them I’ve seen on the news. There’s the prime minister of France in the front row—she dined with my grandfather and Ms. Chancellor not long ago. I recognize the Canadian ambassador to Adria, and another woman who was on the cover of a magazine that was on Ms. Chancellor’s desk last month. I think she’s some sort of CEO. There’s a former candidate for president of the US. A movie star. A talk show host. I’m suddenly all too aware of my jeans and T-shirt—the old cardigan that wasn’t exactly pristine before I was knocked unconscious and transported who knows where. I don’t even want to think about my hair.
But even though the women in this room all carry the same gorgeous, effervescent grace, it’s not a beauty contest. And I’m not a crowd favorite.
“Do you know why you’re here?” the British woman asks me.
“No. But evidently it’s not because of all the assassins who keep trying to kill me. I gather this group is more or less indifferent to assassins.”
No one thinks I’m funny. Not even me.
The British woman is anything but deterred. “You are here, Ms. Blakely, because you violated the sanctity of our sisterhood. You betrayed your heritage and our trust. In short, you told. And that was not very well done of you.”
I find the PM in the crowd. I don’t even try to hide my sarcasm when I turn to her. “So I’ve been summoned because I’m important, huh? You take care of your own, do you?”
“Grace,” Ms. Chancellor whispers. A warning.
I’m not surprised the PM lied to me. I’m mad only at myself for believing her.
“Ms. Blakely?” the British woman prompts, and I spin on her.
“I’m sorry I had to tell my friends about the Society. It wasn’t Ms. Chancellor’s fault. People were hunting me. People were dying. Everyone I knew was in danger—they are still in danger. I didn’t know why then, but I knew I had to try to stop it. If the people close to me were at risk, they deserved to know why. I didn’t have a choice.” I need this group of powerful women to understand, to try to remember what it felt like to be young and afraid and powerless.
“And to tell you the truth,” I say, looking down, “I’d do it again because they were my only chance.”
This, at last, seems to make some kind of impression. I shrug. “At least they cared whether I lived or died. Or maybe I should say that they wanted me to not die, since it seems like maybe you ladies aren’t indifferent at all.”
“Grace, please,” Ms. Chancellor tries. “The elders just need to discuss what happened.”