"Get out," I said immediately.
Yasmine and Vincent, finishing their breakfast at my table, looked up in surprise. Niphon gestured toward them.
"I was invited in. I didn't think it'd be a problem."
Angel and human looked distinctly uncomfortable, and I could guess what had happened. Niphon had turned up, and they'd let him inside, not knowing about our animosity. They'd probably figured he was a partner in evil which, in the most technical of ways, he was.
Vincent hastily stood up and took his empty plate to the sink. Yasmine followed.
"Well," said Vincent. "We should probably get going."
"Yeah," agreed Yasmine, grabbing her coat. Fools rushed in where angels feared to tread, apparently. "Great seeing you guys."
They left so fast that they might as well have teleported out.
I fixed my attention back on Niphon. "Get out," I repeated.
He leaned back against my couch, draping his arms over the back of it. "Letha, Letha - "
"And stop calling me that."
"Whatever you like. And don't worry, I'll be out of your hair soon. I just wanted to give you a Tawny update."
Oh God. Tawny. Please, please let her have scored last night, I silently begged. Her attitude at the bar hadn't really inspired confidence, but maybe me leaving with Jude had set a good example.
"She hasn't taken a victim yet."
Damn.
"Alright, thanks," I said, pointing at the door. "You can leave now. And next time, it's really okay if you call to give me an update. Preferably when you're in the taxi that's taking you to the airport so I don't ever have to fucking see you again."
He rose from the couch, giving me a wounded look. "Fine, fine. But there is one other thing I wanted to talk to you about."
"There is nothing at all I want to talk to you about." I was on the verge of growling.
"Oh, I'm not so sure about that." His hand rested on the doorknob, but he showed no intention of actually leaving. "I think you'll be very interested. It's about your love life."
"No! We are not talking about this."
"Le - Georgina, I just want to help you," he whined. "I think it's terrible that you two can't fully express your love."
"We. Are. Fine. And don't lean against the door. I don't want your hair to leave an oil stain."
Niphon straightened up and ran a solicitous hand over the back of his head. "Look, I get why you don't want to sleep with him. It's admirable. You want to protect his lifespan, not wipe him out, etc., etc. But what if that wasn't an issue? What if I made it so that you could have sex without the dire side effects?"
"Right. And you'd do that out of the kindness of your heart."
"Well..." He shrugged and spread his hands wide. "There's always a price."
"It's not worth it. Not worth Seth selling his soul."
"I could sweeten the deal. Give him a longer lifespan...longer youth..."
"No. I swear to God, if you don't leave now, I'm calling Jerome." That was a bluff, seeing as Jerome was out of town.
"Like I said, just trying to help," Niphon said.
"Yeah, like you helped me?" I asked, not bothering to hide the sarcasm.
Suddenly, the mocking, teasing look vanished. Niphon's face grew hard. Angry. Scary.
"I did help you, Little Letha. You were no one. No one at all. Some poor fisherman's daughter in a shit, backwoods town. Some whore in a shit, backwoods town. You fucked up your life, and I fixed it for you. I made you who you are. Erased your problems. Saved your husband. Gave you eternal life and beauty. If anything, you owe me."
"It wasn't worth it," I said, in a voice that matched his dark expression. "It wasn't worth it."
"Wasn't it? Would you have rather watched your husband commit suicide? Would you rather have died an outcast and disgraced?"
I didn't answer. I thought about the desperate look on my husband's face when he'd found out that I'd cheated on him. Even after all these centuries, that expression still haunted me. He'd been driven to such despair that he'd been on the verge of taking his own life. In selling my soul and becoming a succubus, I'd struck a bargain with Hell that made him and everyone else I knew forget me. My husband had lived and gone on with his life, forgetting I'd ever existed. Had it been worth it?
Observing my silence, Niphon's face turned taunting once more. He opened the door. "Good-bye, Georgina. Let me know if you change your mind."
He left, and I stared at the door for a long time before finally forcing my feet to start moving. The Seth soul-selling offer held no temptation for me whatsoever. That didn't trouble me. But his other words...the reminders of my past...
I sighed. I didn't want to deal with that, not with everything else going on in my life right now. And speaking of which...with two hours left until work, I decided to bite the bullet and again try to get more information about my dreams. From Dante.
His store looked as bleak as the last time I'd visited, but this time, he actually had a customer. She was a young woman, college-aged maybe, with layered brown hair and a gray sweatshirt. Seeing her, I started to step back outside, but he waved me in.
"No, no, it's okay. You can wait here." Dante glanced at the girl. Both of them sat at the shabby, velvet-covered table. "You don't mind, do you?"
She barely spared me a glance. "No! No! Hurry, go on. I want to hear more about the man."
Dante produced a dazzling grin that seemed a bit fake to me but which I suspected was actually very effective on her. Taking a step closer, I realized he was reading her Tarot cards. Several already lay on the table. He flipped another over.
"Ah, the Hierophant." His voice held a mysterious, knowing note.
"What's that mean?" she squealed.
"You don't know? You don't know anything about these?"
She shook her head. "Nothing."
"Well, the Hierophant is a great love card. It represents a romantic man, someone good-looking and charming who loves giving gifts and doing small gestures. You know the kind."
"I don't, actually," she said wistfully. "All my boyfriends have been jerks."
"Well, that's going to change," he promised.
I knew quite a bit about Tarot cards, actually. The Hierophant represented tradition, wisdom, and organized religion. He wasn't exactly a romantic figure, particularly considering he was usually depicted as a priest.
"Why is he dressed so weird?" asked the girl. "He looks like he's in robes."
"It's not weird," Dante said. "It's opulent. Remember, the Tarot is an ancient system. A guy dressed like this represented the height of fashion back in the old days. You know, a real designer label kind of guy."
I caught Dante's gaze and rolled my eyes. He maintained his poker face and flipped the next card.
"Things are looking good," he declared. "The Tower."
The Tower was pretty much the worst card in the deck.
"This shows you guys have a promising future."
"Why is it on fire?" she asked. "And why are people falling out of the windows?"
"It's all symbolic," he said hastily. "And although things look really good for when you meet this guy, it means you have to be cautious and read the signs around you."
"Oh, wow," she said. "I hope I can."
Dante gathered up the cards and stacked them neatly. "Well, I can help if you want. I could give you a package set of readings at a discount. That way, you'll have a guide as you go along. You'll be prepared for when you meet him."
I sincerely doubted she was ever going to meet this mythical guy.
"How much?" she asked hesitantly.
"Hmm, let's see." Dante turned speculative. "Well, they're normally fifty dollars. Usually, I give a five-dollar discount for packages...but, hell. I really want to see this work. I'm a romantic myself, you know? It's a stretch, but I'll do a set of six for forty dollars each. You can buy them now and then come in whenever you want to claim them."
The girl deliberated, and I wanted to yell at her that it was a scam. But I needed Dante's advice and didn't want to get on his bad side. Not that I was necessarily on his good side right now.
"I don't want to pressure you," he told her gently. "So, please. Don't feel obligated. Just do whatever your heart tells you to do. I mean, if the cards have told us anything, it's that you have to protect your heart now as you enter this important stage of your life."
That sold her. "Okay. I'll do it."
I watched in disbelief as the two of them walked to his register. She handed over two-hundred-forty dollars - plus tax - and he gave her a Tarot punch card, not unlike what you'd get at a coffee or sandwich shop.
"You should be ashamed of yourself," I told him when she was gone.
"Succubus. Nice to see you too."
"That wasn't a romance reading."
"Nope," he agreed, coming over to stand beside me. "It actually suggested she'd soon be having a sex change and joining a suicide cult."
"But you told her it was about love."
"She's twenty years old. Love's all they want to hear about at that age."
"You're going to Hell."
"I could have told you that. In fact, I did tell you that last time, didn't I? Now. What can I do for you? You change your mind about the sex?"
"No. Of course not."
He looked offended. "Of course not? What's with the attitude? I'm not that unappealing."
"No," I agreed. He looked like he still hadn't shaved in a couple days, and there was something very sexy about that and the way his indigo T-shirt fit him. I hadn't realized before what nice ab muscles he had. Probably the lack of business around here gave him lots of time to work out. "But that's not why I'm here. And honestly, if this behavior is just the tip of the iceberg, I'm thinking your soul isn't going to be worth my time anyway."
He threw his hands in the air. "She comes and insults me, then expects help. So what is it you want? Your dishwasher finally break?"
"No, but I had the dream again. And there was more."
I recapped it, and he listened, face unreadable.
"You sure you don't want a new dishwasher?" he asked dubiously.
"No!"
"What about kids?"
"What about them?"
"You want them?"
I fell silent, and despite his lopsided smile, I could see Dante scrutinizing me. He might be a con artist, but he was smart. The best ones always are. People like him make their living reading people and exploiting little things - like that girl's longing for romance.
"It doesn't matter," I said. "You know that. I can't have them."
"I didn't ask that, succubus. I asked if you wanted them."
I averted my eyes, studying the crystal ball. With the way the sunlight hit it, I suspected it was actually plastic.
"Sure. I did even when I was mortal. If I could have kids now, I would."
He nodded, and for the first time, I got the impression he might almost be taking me seriously. Almost. "And let me guess. You woke up without energy."
"Yes, and I'd gotten a victim the night before. Just like last time."
His face turned speculative. "Interesting. It only happens when you're charged up."
"What do you think it means?"
"Dunno. Might not mean anything."
"It has to! I'm losing energy for no reason at all."
"You're stressed," he argued. "And you're, like, one of the most uptight people I've ever met - immortal or otherwise. You've spent centuries wishing you could get knocked up. You have this celibate boyfriend thing going on. And you work for that demon, right? The one who looks like Matthew Broderick?"
"John Cusack," I corrected. "He looks like John Cusack."
"Whatever. That's enough to tax anybody. Your dreams are manifestations of the woes in your life, coming out of your subconscious in vivid, energy-sucking ways."
"You are so unhelpful. Your dream expertise is a scam - like everything else."
"Nah. Not everything I do is a scam. I know dreams. I know spells. And I know what could help you."
"What?"
He pointed to the counter. "You and me. Up there. Naked. Horizontal."
I groaned. "Wow, you really weren't lying. You are a romantic."
"A pragmatist. And an opportunist."
"A sleazy guy, treating me like a cheap whore..."
"Fuck, I haven't been laid in months, and now this succubus shows up wanting my help. You'd try to bargain for sex too."
I eyed him warily. "Is that what this is about? I have to sleep with you to get help?"
Dante shoved his hands in his pockets. "Nope. You'd be more fun if you were willing, I think. Besides, I have no other help to give."
Disappointed, I made motions to leave. "Okay. Thanks. Sort of."
"You know what else might help?" he called after me.
"If it involves sex - "
"A vacation. At the very least, a massage. Basic stress reliever things."
Those were actually reasonable things, and I was pleasantly surprised to see his mind wasn't always in the gutter. "They can help," I told him. "But I doubt a massage will fix the problems in my life."
"Maybe. Maybe not. But if you want a free one...a naked free one..."
I left.
I'd already felt like my romance with Seth was some infinite loop tape reel. The rest of my life apparently was too. Have the same dream, go to Dante, get no help, go to work, and ruminate. Because that's exactly how my day was unfolding, just like before.
I went through the motions of paperwork and customer service at Emerald City, all the while consumed by images of the little girl in the dream and the sweet fantasy of having a daughter. My heart ached to see her again, to see that smile. Everything at my job seemed so shallow and meaningless compared with her.
When work ended, I brought Maddie back to my apartment to make good on my promise to get her a date.
"You're going to sell me?" she exclaimed when I told her the plan.
"It's an auction," I said. "For a children's charity. You don't hate kids, do you?"
"Well, no, but - "
"Then this'll be great. Here, try this on." I tossed her a BCBG shopping bag. She eyed it warily.
"Isn't that a place for teenagers?"
"It's a place for anybody with style," I assured her.
She opened the bag and pulled out the knee-length dress I'd picked up for her the other day. It was silk chiffon with a dark pink geometric print. The empire waist had a slightly gathered top, and the V-neck had a bow that tied underneath it. Fluttery cap sleeves finished it off.
"I can't wear this," she said immediately.
"Why? Because it'll look good?"
She shot me a glare. "There's hardly anything there."
"What? There's plenty." I owned lots of dresses that had "hardly anything there." This was elegant and tasteful. Amish country compared to some of my clothing. "Try it on, and we'll see."
She did, reluctantly, and I could have crowed with delight when she stepped out of my bathroom. I'd totally nailed the size. It fit perfectly.
"There isn't an extra inch here," she fretted, pulling at the fabric around the waist.