He took her arm and tugged her toward Number Five. "All the more reason not to dally."wYou're avoiding me," she said.wHow can I be avoiding you if you're right here on my arm?"

That made her scowl. "You're avoiding my question."wWe will discuss it later," he said, "when we are not standing in the middle of Bruton Street, with heaven knows whom staring at us through their windows."

And then, to demonstrate that he would brook no further protest, he placed his hand at her back and steered her none-too-gently up the steps to Number Five.

* * *

One week later, nothing had changed, except, Penelope reflected, her last name.

The wedding had been magical. It was a small affair, much to the dismay of London society. And the wedding night—well, that had been magical, too.

And, in fact, marriage was magical. Colin was a wonderful husband—teasing, gentle, attentive...

Except when the topic of Lady Whistledown arose.

Then he became ... well, Penelope wasn't sure what he became, except that he was not himself. Gone was his easy grace, his glib tongue, everything wonderful that made him the man she'd loved for so very long.

In a way, it was almost funny. For so long, all of her dreams had revolved around marrying this man.

And at some point those dreams had come to include her telling him about her secret life. How could they not? In Penelope's dreams, her marriage to Colin had been a perfect union, and that meant complete honesty.

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In her dreams, she sat him down, shyly revealed her secret. He reacted first with disbelief, then with delight and pride. How remarkable she was, to have fooled all of London for so many years. How witty to have written such clever turns of phrase. He admired her for her resourcefulness, praised her for her success. In some of the dreams, he even suggested that he become her secret reporter.

It had seemed the sort of thing Colin would enjoy, just the sort of amusing, devious task that he would relish.

But that wasn't the way it had turned out.

He said he wasn't ashamed of her, and maybe he even thought that was true, but she couldn't quite bring herself to believe him. She'd seen his face when he swore that all he wanted was to protect her. But protectiveness was a fierce, burning feeling, and when Colin was talking about Lady Whistledown, his eyes were shuttered and flat.

She tried not to feel so disappointed. She tried to tell herself that she had no right to expect Colin to live up to her dreams, that her vision of him had been unfairly idealized, but...

But she still wanted him to be the man she'd dreamed of.

And she felt so guilty for every pang of disappointment. This was Colin! Colin, for heaven's sake. Colin, who was as close to perfect as any human being could ever hope to be. She had no right to find fault with him, and yet...

And yet she did.

She wanted him to be proud of her. She wanted it more than anything in the world, more even than she'd wanted him all those years when she'd watched him from afar.

But she cherished her marriage, and awkward moments aside, she cherished her husband. And so she stopped mentioning Lady Whistledown. She was tired of Colin's hooded expression. She didn't want to see the tight lines of displeasure around his mouth.

It wasn't as if she could avoid the topic forever; any trip out into society seemed to bring mention of her alter ego. But she didn't have to introduce the subject at home.

And so, as they sat at breakfast one morning, chatting amiably as they each perused that morning's newspaper, she searched for other topics.wDo you think we shall take a honeymoon trip?" she asked, spreading a generous portion of raspberry jam on her muffin. She probably ought not to eat so much, but the jam was really quite tasty, and besides, she always ate a lot when she was anxious.

She frowned, first at the muffin and then at nothing in particular. She hadn't realized she was so anxious.

She'd thought she'd been able to push the Lady Whistledown problem to the back of her mind.wPerhaps later in the year," Colin replied, reaching for the jam once she was through with it. "Pass me the toast, would you?"

She did so, silently.

He glanced up, either at her or over at the plate of kippers—she couldn't be sure. "You look disappointed," he said.

She supposed she should be flattered that he'd looked up from his food. Or maybe he was looking at the kippers and she just got in the way. Probably the latter. It was difficult to compete with food for Colin's attention.wPenelope?" he queried.

She blinked.wYou looked disappointed?" he reminded her.wOh. Yes, well, I am, I suppose." She gave him a faltering smile. "I've never been anywhere, and you've been everywhere, and I guess I thought you could take me someplace you especially liked. Greece, perhaps. Or maybe Italy. I've always wanted to see Italy."wYou would like it," he murmured distractedly, his attention more on his eggs than on her. "Venice especially, I think."wThen why don't you take me?"wI will," he said, spearing a pink piece of bacon and popping it into his mouth. "Just not now."

Penelope licked a bit of jam off her muffin and tried not to look too crestfallen.wIf you must know," Colin said with a sigh, "the reason I don't want to leave is ..." He glanced at the open door, his lips pursing with annoyance. "Well, I can't say it here."

Penelope's eyes widened."You mean..." She traced a large W onthe tablecloth.wExactly."

She stared at him in surprise, a bit startled that he had brought up the subject, and even more so that he didn't seem terribly upset by it. "But why?" she finally asked.wShould the secret come out," he said cryptically, just in there were any servants about, which there usually were, "I should like to be in town to control the damage."




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