“Yeah,” he muttered. “Time for self-pity. Poor me. Poor Sam.”
He meant it to sound ironic, but it came out bitter.
Caine probably had a pretty good case of resentment, too. He’d been rejected by both birth parents: two for two.
And yet, Caine still had Diana, didn’t he?
How was it fair? Caine was a liar, a manipulator, a murderer. And Caine was probably lying in satin sheets with Diana eating actual food and watching a DVD. Clean sheets, candy bars, and a beautiful, willing girl.
Caine who had never done a single good or decent thing was living in luxury.
Sam, who had tried and tried and done everything he could, was sitting in his house with a raging headache, smelling vomit with a pair of ibuprofen burning a hole in his stomach lining.
Alone.
Hunter brought his kills to the gas station any day he had some. Today, bright and early, with the sun just warming the hills behind him, he had walked down from his hillside camp carrying four birds and a badger and two raccoons and a bag of squirrels. He forgot how many squirrels. The bag felt heavy, though.
It was a lot to carry. If you added it up it was probably about as heavy as carrying a kid. Not as heavy as a deer though—those he had to butcher and carry down in pieces.
No deer today. And he had not yet butchered Old Lion. That was a big job. He wanted to keep the skin in one piece, so he had to take his time.
He would wear the lion’s skin over him when he had dried it out. It would be warm and remind him of Old Lion.
Hunter carried the squirrel bag slung over one shoulder. He roped the other animals together and draped the rope over his other shoulder. He had to be careful about that, though, because of the thing on his shoulder.
That kid named Roscoe was coming. He was pushing a wheelbarrow. He didn’t look very happy. Every day Hunter came it was either Roscoe or this girl named Marcie. Marcie was nice. But Hunter knew she was scared of him. Probably because he couldn’t talk well.
“Hey, Hunter,” Roscoe said. “Dude, are you okay?”
“Yes.”
“You’re all clawed up, man. I mean, jeez, that has to hurt.”
Hunter followed the direction of Roscoe’s gaze. His shirt was ripped exposing his stomach. Two claw marks, deep, bloody, just beginning to scab a little, were plowed right across his stomach.
He touched the wound gingerly. But it didn’t hurt. In fact he couldn’t feel it at all.
“You’re a tough dude, Hunter,” Roscoe said. “Anyway, looks like you have a good haul today.”
“I do, Roscoe,” Hunter said. He spoke as carefully as he could. But still the words didn’t sound like how he made words back before. He sounded as if his tongue was covered with glue.
Hunter carefully lifted the rope off his shoulder. He was careful not to scrape the thing on his shoulder. He set the animals in the wheelbarrow. Then he upended the squirrel bag and dumped the squirrels on top. They all looked the same. Gray and bushy-tailed. Each cooked inside a little. Enough. Sometimes he cooked their heads and sometimes their body. It wasn’t that easy to aim the invisible stuff that radiated out of his hands.
He forgot what it was called. Astrid had some name for it. But it was a long word.
“You doing okay, Hunter?” Roscoe asked again.
“Yes. I have food. And my sleeping bag is dry after I cleaned it in a stream.”
“You got fresh water to wash in, huh?” Roscoe asked. “I’m jealous. Feel this shirt.” He invited Hunter to feel the stiff saltwater-washed cotton.
“It feels okay,” Hunter said warily.
Roscoe made a rude noise. “Yeah, right. Salt water. Feel your shirt.” And Roscoe reached out to touch Hunter’s shirt. He touched the shoulder of Hunter’s shirt.
The wrong shoulder.
“Aaahh!” Roscoe cried in shock and pain. “What the—”
“I didn’t mean to!” Hunter yelled.
“Something bit me!” He held out his finger for Hunter to examine. There were teeth marks. Blood.
Roscoe stared hard at him. And at his shoulder. “What’s on your shoulder, man? What is that? What’s under there? Is that some kind of animal?”
Hunter swallowed. No one had seen his shoulder. He didn’t know what would happen if anyone did.
“Yes, Roscoe, it’s an animal,” Hunter said, seizing gratefully on the explanation.
“Well, it bit me!”
“Sorry,” Hunter said.
Roscoe grabbed the wheelbarrow handles and hefted it. “I’m not doing this job anymore. Marcie can do it every day, I’m not dealing with this.”
“Okay,” Hunter said. “Bye.”
Jennifer B set out sometime around dawn.
If she stayed in the house she was sure she would die. She’d slept for an unknown period of time—hours? days?—on the floor, with her blankets gathered around her.
The chills came in waves. She would be too hot and would kick off her blankets. Then the fever would start to spike again and she would feel cold, cold all the way down to her bones.
Jennifer H was dead. Jennifer L didn’t answer when Jennifer B moaned to her to join her.
“Jen . . . I’m going to . . . hospital.”
No answer.
“Are you alive?”
Jennifer L coughed, she wasn’t dead, and she coughed normally, not the crazy spasms that had killed Jennifer H. But she didn’t answer.
So Jennifer Boyles set off, on her own. She slid on her butt down the stairs, blankets gathered around her. Shivering, teeth chattering.