I laugh. And force myself to bury my feelings—the panic, the yearning—for Sofia. Swallow it down, suck it up. Because today . . . my girl’s getting married.

• • •

The church is filled to the brim. Miss Bea plays the “Bridal Chorus” on that old organ. Presley scatters rose petals down the aisle. And Jenny . . . Jenny is gorgeous, as I knew she would be. I watch JD’s face when she steps into the church—it’s filled with wonder and gratitude and so much love.

And it doesn’t make me want to punch him—not even a little. It doesn’t make me sad.

It just feels . . . like it’s something that’s supposed to be.

The reception is held outside, behind the church, in white tents with elegantly decorated picnic tables and padded folding chairs. The grass is as green as my daddy’s pastures, the sky almost as blue as my daughter’s eyes. The whole town is here—the people who’ve known me even before I was born. Brent chats with Pastor Thompson. Marshall leans against a tree, trying to look cool talking to a girl. Mary’s surrounded by a group of giggling females, all whispers and wide eyes. Carter holds court on the grass, preaching to a gaggle of worshipful-faced kids, who gaze at him like he’s Jesus Christ on the mount. My parents dance to the band’s music.

The only thing missing . . . is her.

I’ve tried calling a few times, but it goes to voice mail. I tell myself that she just forgot to turn it back on after the flight, but my powers of persuasion appear to be stronger with a jury than with my own fucking head.

“I saved a dance for you. Feel like cashin’ it in?”

Jenny stands next to me, hands folded, smiling. We head out onto the wooden makeshift dance floor. As we slowly rock I tell her, “You look stunning.”

She bats her lashes. “I know.”

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We chuckle and then, cautiously, she asks, “Sofia went back to DC?”

I nod silently.

“I like her, Stanton. I hope you don’t plan on letting her get away.”

“I have no intention of letting her get away—she just doesn’t know that yet.”

I look down into Jenny’s baby blues, hold her in my arms—my dearest, sweetest friend.

“I’m glad you didn’t let JD get away. You deserve to be looked at the way he looks at you.”

She pushes my hair back from my forehead. “You deserve that too.” She glances over my shoulder for a moment, and then her gaze is back to me. “Remember the other day by the river? When you said that Presley and I are your family?”

“Yeah.”

Her eyes grow shiny with emotion. “We’ll always be your family.”

Warmth rises in my stomach—a comforting, tender sort of heat. Presley’s voice catches both our ears and at the same time, we look over at our beautiful, laughing baby girl.

“We did good though, didn’t we, Stanton? All things considered.”

My voice is rough, choked with feeling. “Ah, Jenn—we did great. Just look at her.”

And for a time, we do. Intimately joined by memories and the unending love for the same little person.

“If I could go back and do it all over again with you, I would,” Jenny whispers. “I wouldn’t change a thing.”

I look into her eyes, and then I press my lips to her forehead gently. “Me too. Not a single thing.”

And that’s how Jenny and I say good-bye.

• • •

Later on, I sit on the wooden, two-seater swing beside Presley, watching the celebration continue. “And then, when school lets out, you’ll come to DC for the summer.”

“For the whole summer, right? You promise?”

“The whole summer,” I say, nodding. “You have my word.”

“Will Miss Sofia be there?”

“She will be, yes.”

My daughter looks at me sideways, with round, knowing eyes. “Did you screw that up, Daddy?”

A little bit, yeah. But I’ll make it right.”

She bestows her approval with a quick nod of her head. “Good.”

A blond boy in a button-down shirt and clip-on tie calls from a few feet away. “Hey, Presley! We’re goin’ down the river—you comin’?”

“I’ll be right there,” she shouts back.

My brow puckers. “That was Ethan Fortenbury, wasn’t it?”

“Yep, that’s him.”

“I thought he was a horse’s anus.”

“Well,” she sighs, “he said he was sorry for sayin’ I had man hands. Tol’ me he only did it ’cause his older brother dared him to.”

This sounds uncomfortably familiar.

“Those big brothers can certainly be trouble.”

Then she grins bashfully. “He thinks I’m pretty. And he likes how I throw a football.”

Oh shit.

“He’s got good eyesight, then.”

“Yeah.”

She stands up, smoothing her blue satin dress. Before she runs off, I implore, “Hey baby girl, can you promise me somethin’?”

“Sure.”

“Just give me a few more years before you start turnin’ my whiskers gray, okay?”

She laughs and kisses my cheek. “Alright, Daddy—I promise.”

Then she skips off.

And I shake my head. “Ethan fucking Fortenbury. Sonofabitch.”

23

Stanton

Brent and I make record time driving back to DC—I pushed my Porsche to the limit and she did not let me down. I refused to stop overnight, so one of us slept in the passenger seat while the other drove. For two men over six feet, sleeping in a Porsche is not conducive to happy fucking dreams, but Brent didn’t complain. He knew it was killing me to be so far away and he put “Ride of the Valkyries” on repeat to help lighten the mood.




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