Thierry knelt by the window, careful not to make a noise or disturb the dry earth beneath him. It was a
skill so familiar to his body that he might have been born with it. Darkness was his native environment; he
could melt into a shadow at an instant's notice or move more quietly than a stalking cat. But right now he
was looking into the light.
He could see her. Just the curve of her shoulder and the spill of her hair, but he knew it was her.
Beside him, Lupe was crouched, her thin body human but quivering with animal alertness and tension.
She whispered, softer than a breath, "All right?"
Thierry tore his gaze from that shoulder to look at her. Lupe's face was bruised, one eye almost closed,
lower lip torn. But she was smiling. She'd stuck around Medicine Rock until Thierry had arrived, tailing
the girl called Hannah Snow, making sure no harm came to her.
Thierry took Lupe's hand and kissed it. You're an angel, he told her, and made even less sound than she
had in speaking because he didn't use his vocal chords at all. His voice was telepathic. And you deserve
a long vacation. My limo's at the tourist resort in Clearwater; take it to the airport at Billings.
"But-you're not planning to stay here alone, are you? You need backup, sir. If she comes-"
I can take care of things. I brought something to protect Hannah. Besides she won't do anything until she
talks to me.
"But-"
Lupe, go. His tone was gentle, but it was unmistakably not the urging of a friend anymore. It was the
order of her liege lord, Thierry of the Night World, who was accustomed to being obeyed. Funny,
Thierry thought, how you never realized how accustomed you were to being obeyed until somebody
defied you. Now, he turned away from Lupe and looked through the cracks in the boarded-up window
again.
And promptly forgot that Lupe existed. The girl on the couch had turned. He could see her face.
Shock coursed through him.
He had known it was her-but he hadn't known that it would look so much like her. Like the way she had
looked the first time, the first time she had been born, the first time he had seen her. This was what he
thought of as her true face, and though he'd seen various approximations of it through the years, he'd
never seen it again. Until now.
This was the exact image of the girl he'd fallen in love with.
The same long, straight fair hair, like silk in different shades of wheat color, spilling over her shoulders.
The same wide gray eyes that seemed full of light. The same steady expression, the same tender mouth,
upper lip indenting the lower to give her a look of t unintentional sensuality. The same fine bone structure,
the high cheekbones and graceful line of jaw that made her a sculptor's dream.
The only thing that was different was the birthmark.
The psychic brand.
It was the color of watered wine held up to the light, of watermelon ice, of a pink tourmaline, the palest
of gemstones. Blushing rose. Like one large petal, slantwise beneath her cheekbone. As if she'd laid a
rose against her cheek for a moment and it had left its imprint on her flesh.
To Thierry, it was beautiful, because it was part of her. She'd worn it in every lifetime after the first. But
at the same time the very sight of it made his throat clamp shut and his fists clench in helpless grief and
fury-fury against himself. The mark was his shame, his punishment. And his penance was to watch her
wear it in her innocence through the years.
He would pour out his blood on the dry Montana dirt right now if it would take the mark away. But
nothing in either the Night World or the human world could do that-at least nothing he'd found in
uncounted years of searching.
Oh, Goddess, he loved her.
He hadn't allowed himself to feel it for so long- because the feeling could drive him insane while he was
away from her. But now it came over him in a flood that he couldn't have resisted if he'd tried. It made his
heart pound and his body tremble. The sight of her lying there, warm and alive, separated from him by
only a few flimsy boards and an equally flimsy human male...
He wanted her. He wanted to yank off the boards, step through the window, brush aside the red-haired
man, and take her in his arms. He wanted to carry her off into the night, holding her close to his heart, to
some secret place where nobody could ever find her to hurt her.
He didn't. He knew... from experience... that it didn't work. He'd done it once or twice, and he'd
paid for it. She had hated him before she died.
He would never risk that again.
And so now, on this spring night near the turn of the millennium in the state of Montana in the United
States of America, all Thierry could do was kneel outside a window and watch the newest incarnation of
his only Jove.
He didn't realize at first, though, what his only love was actually doing. Lupe had told him that Hannah
Snow was seeing a psychologist. But it was only now, listening to what was going on in the room that
Thierry slowly realized exactly what Hannah and the psychologist were up to.
They were trying to recover her memories. Using hypnosis. Breaking into her subconscious as if it were
some bank vault.
It was dangerous.
Not just because the guy performing the hypnosis didn't seem to know what he was doing. But because
Hannah's memory was a time-bomb, full of trauma for her and deadly knowledge for any human.
They shouldn't be doing this.
Every muscle in Thierry's body was tense. But there was no way he could stop it. He could only
listen-and wait.
Paul repeated with slow resignation, "He's not human."
"No. He's a Lord of the Night World. He's powerful... and evil," Hannah whispered. "He's lived for
thousands of years." She added, almost absently, "I'm the one who's been reincarnated."
"Oh, terrific. Well, that's a twist."
"You don't believe me?"
Paul seemed to suddenly remember that he was talking with a patient-and a hypnotized patient at that.
"No, I-I mean, I don't know what to believe. If it's a fantasy, there's got to be something underneath it,
some psychological reason for you to make it all up. And that's what we're looking for. What all this
means to you." He hesitated, then said with new determination, "Let's take you back to the first time you
met this guy. Okay, I want you to relax in the light; you're feeling very good. And now I want you to go
back through time, just like turning back the pages of a book. In your mind, go back. ..."
Hannah's ordinary mind was intruding, waking up, overriding the dreamy part of her that had been
answering Paul's questions. "Wait, I-I don't know if that's a good idea."
"We can't figure this out until we find out what it all symbolizes; what it means to you."
Hannah still didn't feel convinced, but she had the feeling she wasn't supposed to argue under hypnosis.
Maybe it doesn't matter, though, she thought. I'm waking up now; I probably won't be able to go back.
"I want you to see yourself as fifteen years old, see yourself as fifteen. Go back to the time when you
were fifteen. And now I want you to see yourself at twelve years old; go in your mind to the time when
you are twelve. Now go farther back, see yourself at nine years old, at six years old, at three years old.
Now go back and see yourself as a baby, as an infant. Feel very comfortable and see yourself as a tiny
baby."
Hannah couldn't help but listen. She did feel comfortable, and her mind did show her pictures as the
years seemed to turn back. It was like watching a film of her life running backward, herself getting smaller
and smaller, and in the end tiny and bald.
"And now," the soothing, irresistible voice said, "I want you to go farther back. Back to the time before
you were born. The time before you were born as Hannah Snow. You are floating in the red light, you
feel very relaxed, and you are going back, back... to the time when you first met this man you think of
as Thierry. Whatever that time might be, go back. Go back to the first time."
Hannah was being drawn down a tunnel.
She had no control and she was scared. It wasn't like the rumored near-death tunnel. It was red, with
translucent, shining, pulsing walls-something like a womb. And she was being pulled or sucked through it
at ever-increasing speed.
No, she thought. But she couldn't say anything. It was all happening too fast and she couldn't make a
sound.
"Back to the first time," Paul intoned, and his words set up a sort of echo in Hannah's head, a whispering
of many voices. As if a hundred Hannahs had
all gotten together and murmured sibilantly, "The First Time. The First Time."
"Go back... and you will begin to see pictures. You will see yourself, maybe in a strange place. Go