‘No. I will not return.’
Trull stared at him. ‘Listen to me, please. I believe, if we work together, we can guide him back. From madness. For the Sisters’ sake, Fear, we must try. For our people-’
‘No.’
‘You… would leave me to this?’
Sudden pain in Fear’s face, but he refused to meet his brother’s eyes. ‘I must go. I understand something now, you see. This is not of Rhulad’s making. Nor Hannan Mosag’s. It is Father Shadow’s, Trull.’
‘Scabandari Bloodeye is dead-’
‘Not his spirit. It remains… somewhere. I intend to find it.’
‘To what end?’
‘We have been usurped. All of us. By the one behind that sword. No-one else can save us, Trull. I mean to find Scabandari Bloodeye. If he is bound, I mean to free him. His spirit. We shall return together, or not at all.’
Trull knew his brother well enough to cease arguing. Fear had found a new purpose, and with it he intended to flee… from everything, and everyone, else. ‘How will you get out of the city? They will be looking for us – it’s probable they are doing so even now.’
‘Hull once told me that Seren Pedac had her home here.’ Fear shook his head. ‘I don’t know, I don’t understand it myself, but I believe she might help.’
‘Why?’
Fear shook his head.
‘How do you know where she lives?’
‘I don’t. But it’s… this way.’
He began walking. Trull quickly caught up to him and gripped his arm. ‘Listen – no, I don’t mean to prevent you. But listen to me, please.’
‘Very well, but let us walk in the meantime.’
‘All right. Do you not wonder at all this, Fear? How did I find you? It should have been impossible, yet here we are. And now you, and this house – the Acquitor’s house – Fear, something is guiding us. We are being manipulated-’
His brother’s smile was wry. ‘What of it?’
To that, Trull had no answer. Silent, he walked with Fear. Coming upon a score of dead Letherii, he paused to collect a sword and scabbard. He strapped it on, ignoring Fear’s raised brows, not out of some ambivalent emotion, but because he himself did not know why he had picked up the weapon. They walked on.
Until they came to a modest house.
Trull’s chest seemed to clench tight upon seeing her standing in the doorway. He could not understand it – no, he could, but it was impossible. Absurd. He’d only seen Seren Pedac a few times. Had but exchanged a few score words, if that. Yet, as he studied her face, the shock writ there, so at odds with the appalling depth in her eyes, he felt himself falling forward in his mind-
‘What?’ she asked, gaze darting between him and Fear. ‘What are you…’
‘I need your help,’ Fear said.
‘I cannot… I don’t see how…’
Sisters take me, I would give my heart to this woman. This Letherii…
Fear said, ‘I am fleeing. My brother, the emperor. I need a guide to take me through the city unseen. Tonight.’
‘How did you find me?’
‘I don’t know. I don’t even know why… why I have this belief that only you can help me.’
She looked then at Trull, and he saw her eyes hold on his for what seemed a long moment, slowly widening. ‘And you, Trull Sengar?’ she asked. ‘Are coming with us?’
With us. She will do this. Why? What need within her does this answer ? The pressure in his chest constricted suddenly, even as the fateful words left him, ‘I cannot, Acquitor. I failed Rhulad this day. I must try… again. I must try to save him.’
Something like resignation filled her eyes.
As if he had wounded something that already bore a thousand scars.
And Trull wanted to cry out. Instead, he said, ‘I am sorry. But I will await your return – both of you-’
‘We shall return here?’ she asked, glancing at Fear. ‘Why?’
‘To end this,’ Fear said.
‘To end what?’
‘The tyranny born here tonight, Seren Pedac.’
‘You would kill Rhulad? Your own brother?’
‘Kill him? That would not work, as you know. No. But I shall find another way. I shall.’
Oh, who has grasped hold of my soul this night ? He found himself unhitching the sword, heard himself saying, ‘I don’t know if you have a weapon, Acquitor,’ and knew his own disbelief at the absurdity of his own words, the shallowness of his reasoning, ‘so I will give you mine…’ And he was holding the sheathed sword out to her.