Ethan and I grabbed food, but took it back to the office to talk through status while we ate. Ethan no longer ate his hot dog with a fork off undoubtedly expensive China, and he’d striped it with neon relish and added sport peppers, which brought it closer to a proper Chicago dog. I was getting through.
“Would you like to tell me about your RG visit?” he asked, taking a bite.
“Nothing changed,” I said. “That’s really all there is to say. We’re at an impasse.”
“Odd. You’d think meeting atop the Navy Pier Ferris wheel would make for a happy occasion.”
I started to say something, then looked at him. “Are you trying to guess where the meetings are?”
“I would do no such thing.”
“You completely would. But, seriously, the Ferris wheel?”
He formed a box with his fingers. “I believe it has cars.”
I just shook my head. “How have you lived here so long without a ride on the Ferris wheel?”
“I’m a vampire,” he said, as if that was the obvious explanation.
I just sighed.
“Did they recognize the Rogue?”
“No. No one recognized him, and no one had seen any alchemy. They don’t seem naive to the possibility Reed’s our villain, but they don’t seem terribly interested in doing anything about it, either. I gave them a speech about how we’re the allies, not the enemies, and then walked out and left them to think about it.”
Ethan smiled, attacked his dog. “There may be a Master in you yet.”
“Don’t even joke about that. I know you have to look at bank statements and spreadsheets.”
“There’s nothing like the beauty of a good P-and-L statement.”
“I’ll take your word for it.”
There was a knock on the threshold, and we both looked up.
Jonah stood in the doorway.
Assuming he was there for me, I wiped my mouth with a napkin, rose. “Hey. Is everything all right?”
“Yeah. I’m sorry to interrupt your dinner. Could we talk? Merit, I mean.”
I blinked. I hadn’t expected to see him here, much less to pose anything in the form of a question. I’d expected yelling, angry text messages, demands that I return the Midnight High T-shirts and medal I’d received when I was inducted. But asking me to talk? That was a new one.
“Sure,” I said, and glanced at Ethan, got his nod.
I took a final drink of milk shake, pushed my chair under the table again. “Don’t eat my fries while I’m gone.”
“Finders keepers,” he muttered, and snatched one from my plate.
• • •
“Sorry to interrupt your dinner,” Jonah said as we walked down the hall toward the front of the House. I wasn’t in the mood for another session of Confessions in the Garden, so I opted for the smaller of the House’s two front parlors. It was a cozy room, with a wall of bookshelves, a couch, and a few chairs. It was also empty of vampires, since most of the Novitiates who lived in the House were in the cafeteria chowing down.
I took a seat in an armchair. He took the one across from me.
“No problem. I’m surprised you’re here, after . . .”
He nodded, looked at his hands, rubbed them together. Was he nervous? “To tell you the truth, I am, too,” he said. “Listen, about the lighthouse—”
“Yeah, I’m sorry about that.”
He gazed up at me, eyes bright. “Don’t be sorry. You were absolutely right. And you said something that people have been thinking for a while now. The world is different than it was when the RG was created, and we haven’t really adapted.” He paused, seeming to consider. “Historically, the good vampires were the ones who didn’t make trouble. Who kept their heads down. The bad vampires didn’t. They drew attention to themselves.”
“That’s a very pre-Celina attitude,” I said, since she’d been the one to out our existence to the rest of the world.
“Exactly. And it’s where they still are. For a long time, it worked. When our focus was staying quiet and safe, it totally worked. But you’re right. It doesn’t work anymore. It’s time we change.”
He looked up at me. “It’s going to be hard for some to adapt. Some will be afraid, and some will probably leave the RG. But I don’t think we have a choice.”
“We?” I asked, very deliberately.
The question must have made him antsy, because he rose, walked to the bookshelves, putting space between us.
“You still think I’m a traitor to the cause,” I said. “Because I won’t spy on him.”
He ran a hand through his auburn locks. “No. It’s more complicated than that. And not really complicated at all.”
Silence descended while he looked everywhere but at me. And I just stared at him, baffled. Finally, after a good two minutes had passed, Jonah cleared his throat again and looked at me with stormy blue eyes. “I handled the request poorly—asking you to watch Ethan, to report on Ethan—because I still have feelings for you.”
I stared at him. “You . . . what?”
“Yeah,” he said with a sad little shrug. “I haven’t been able to shake it.”
I was staggered. Flattered, absolutely—who wouldn’t be?—but also staggered. I’d been with Ethan for virtually our entire partnership, and Jonah knew how I’d felt. I hadn’t done anything to encourage him, at least as far as I was aware, but that didn’t really make me feel any better.