The removal of Little Dorrit herself from their customary association,
did not mend the matter. She was so much out, and so much in her own
room, that he began to miss her and to find a blank in her place. He had
written to her to inquire if she were better, and she had written
back, very gratefully and earnestly telling him not to be uneasy on her
behalf, for she was quite well; but he had not seen her, for what, in
their intercourse, was a long time.
He returned home one evening from an interview with her father, who had
mentioned that she was out visiting--which was what he always said
when she was hard at work to buy his supper--and found Mr Meagles in an
excited state walking up and down his room. On his opening the door, Mr
Meagles stopped, faced round, and said: 'Clennam!--Tattycoram!' 'What's the matter?' 'Lost!' 'Why, bless my heart alive!' cried Clennam in amazement. 'What do you
mean?' 'Wouldn't count five-and-twenty, sir; couldn't be got to do it; stopped
at eight, and took herself off.' 'Left your house?'
'Never to come back,' said Mr Meagles, shaking his head. 'You don't know
that girl's passionate and proud character. A team of horses couldn't
draw her back now; the bolts and bars of the old Bastille couldn't keep
her.' 'How did it happen? Pray sit down and tell me.'
'As to how it happened, it's not so easy to relate: because you must
have the unfortunate temperament of the poor impetuous girl herself,
before you can fully understand it. But it came about in this way. Pet
and Mother and I have been having a good deal of talk together of late.
I'll not disguise from you, Clennam, that those conversations have not
been of as bright a kind as I could wish; they have referred to our
going away again. In proposing to do which, I have had, in fact, an
object.' Nobody's heart beat quickly.
'An object,' said Mr Meagles, after a moment's pause, 'that I will not
disguise from you, either, Clennam. There's an inclination on the part
of my dear child which I am sorry for. Perhaps you guess the person.
Henry Gowan.' 'I was not unprepared to hear it.'
'Well!' said Mr Meagles, with a heavy sigh, 'I wish to God you had never
had to hear it. However, so it is. Mother and I have done all we could
to get the better of it, Clennam. We have tried tender advice, we
have tried time, we have tried absence. As yet, of no use. Our late
conversations have been upon the subject of going away for another year
at least, in order that there might be an entire separation and breaking
off for that term. Upon that question, Pet has been unhappy, and
therefore Mother and I have been unhappy.' Clennam said that he could
easily believe it. 'Well!' continued Mr Meagles in an apologetic way, 'I admit as a
practical man, and I am sure Mother would admit as a practical woman,
that we do, in families, magnify our troubles and make mountains of our
molehills in a way that is calculated to be rather trying to people who
look on--to mere outsiders, you know, Clennam.