I felt quite secure about that and decided not to tell Dex. I hoped nothing bad would happen to our equipment but I wanted to prove to him that I was more than just a pretty face. I wanted to show that I could handle both sides of the operation.
I could tell he was a bit wary of me being the camera person, too. He kept sneaking glances at me as I filmed the tall, towering trees with their powdered sugar toppings, ready to give advice on the simplest things. Then it occurred to me that he actually was nervous. The way his eyes were darting about. The way he popped gum in his mouth, chewing fast. The way he scratched at his sideburns and chewed on his lip. These were all classic neurotic Dex maneuvers. I’d seen them from day one.
Then again, he had a lot to be neurotic about. The whole incident in the night, his mother. It would drift into my head from time to time and jar me with fright. I could only imagine it did the same to him but he was so damn good at hiding things. Of course, it didn’t help that it was all probably because I fucked with his meds to begin with. Though I liked to pretend it wasn’t that big of a deal at the time, I knew it was wrong. I knew it was very wrong. I had just spent months blaming Dex for everything, I didn’t feel the need to focus on anything I did. I was amazed and a little ashamed that he seemed to forgive me so easily after I broke his trust like that. I wished I had that ability.
We were extremely happy to finally reach the cabin and my boobs were grateful to not bounce over anymore massive bumps and potholes. Later Rigby would tell us it was a logging road, used to hell during the summer, then navigated only by snowmobiles in the winter. It was a long way to town from where we were and we weren’t even in the backcountry yet, where we’d be shooting. I remembered what I had told Ada about The Shining and hoped I hadn’t jinxed myself.
“Welcome to my humble abode,” Rigby said, walking toward us as we got out of the car, his arms outstretched and boots crunching on the snow.
It really was humble. His cabin was two stories with small windows. There was some frost on the sloping, shingled roof and a few patches of melting snow, giving it a quaint ski-chalet look. Beside it were several woodsheds, all of them half-full with stacks of wood. The landscaping was rough and consisted of dark rocky ground poking through a thin layer of hard snow, with a small gravel path leading from the cabin to the woodsheds and toward a small barn. I could see the shape of a horse in its stall, waiting in the darkness. Beyond that was a tiny hut labeled “office” and next to that a large paddock that disappeared down the hill, holding a few curious llamas.
Rigby caught my gaze. “Those are the llamas,” he said. “They are the star attractions here. Llama trekking is the biggest trend in eco-adventures. We started out with twenty of them, but now we just have eight. Times are tough. Good news for you both is that you get to take two llamas with you on your expedition.”
“Um,” I said. “What?”
I looked at Dex for an explanation. He raised his shoulders though I swore I saw a knowing smile teasing on his lips.
“Of course you’ll have the llamas to assist you,” Rigby boomed as if I was a total idiot. “You can’t go camping without the llamas. They carry everything for you and don’t damage the environment.”
I was hit with the sudden realization that I had no idea what this Sasquatch shoot entailed. “I thought we were staying in a cabin in the woods somewhere?”
He nodded vigorously. “You are, you are. But just because Christina says she was attacked by the cabin, it doesn’t mean that’s where you’ll find the beast. You’re going to have to go exploring. But it’s OK, I’ve drawn on a detailed map for you all the areas where I’ve spotted it.”
“About that,” Dex spoke up, fingers under his chin. “We’d like to interview you on camera and get some inside information on exactly what you’ve seen.”
He waved at us haphazardly. “Sure, sure, there’s plenty of time for that later. For now, I want to see what you guys have packed. We’re going to need to outfit it all for these guys. You get one llama each, you know, but we don’t like to load them with more than 50 pounds during the winter when they aren’t as in shape and the terrain is rough.”
My mind was going back to camping. I hadn’t agreed to that. It was still winter. In Canada. In the mountains. How would camping here, now, work? We’d freeze our asses off.
Rigby answered my next question. “Here, let’s go inside for some tea. Christina will put it on. Bring your stuff and we’ll go through it, taking only what you need for the next few days. I’ll be lending you some winter-ready camping equipment and it can weigh quite a bit.”
We followed him down the path toward the cabin. As we went up the short steps, Dex leaned over and murmured, “Feel like sharing a sleeping bag again?”
I looked him dead-on. “Yes, actually I will be sharing a damn sleeping bag with you. I’ll use your body as a blanket if I have to.”
He pursed his lips, looking impressed.
Inside, Christina was doing the brunt of the work. She ran around getting the tea ready and putting out store-bought shortbread cookies and was in and out with various packs, sleeping bags and tents from a storage closet. She didn’t complain once about the work but I could see the sheen of resentment on her forehead.
I decided to only take the jeans I was wearing, warm tights, pajamas, a few layer tops, two hoodies, my coat and a waterproof jacket. A bunch of thick socks, gloves, scarves and a knit hunting cap topped it off. I contemplated bringing my Kindle but knew there wouldn’t be a place to charge it, and when I thought about it, whenever Dex and I were together, no matter what we were doing, there was rarely any downtime between us. If we weren’t being harassed and terrorized, we were pretty good at entertaining each other.
And a warming part of me thought we could entertain each other a lot better now.
Anyway, aside from me feeling uneasy about camping in the cold, I was also unsure of our traveling companions: The llamas. I loved pretty much all animals but I had a bad experience with a camel when I was younger and llamas seemed to be nothing more than shorter, ornery cousins with a greater capacity for spitting.