He says it so sincerely and I want to believe him, but now there’s already been a seed of doubt that has been planted, all it needs is a little watering and soon it will be very fruitful.

“Look I’m really hoping that once we… huh you know, that you don’t decide that I’m not worth anything and decide to ditch..” before I can even continue he has me pushed up against the couch kissing me again. Then just as quickly he pulls back.

“Look Laya I love you. More than you would ever think. There's nothing I wouldn't do to make you happy. You are the best thing that has ever happened to me. Don't let anyone else make you doubt that. I wouldn't have been with you this long if that’s all I wanted I spend every night here not because I think that I'm gonna get Lucky, I know were you stand in that department. I know your beliefs and I respect them. With that said I'm here with you for more than just sex. I want you Laya, I enjoy just being around you besides the feeling when I’m around you is inexplicable, from the moment I saw you, I’ve been drawn to you like a moth to a flame. I don’t want to ever lose you."