Biddy was astir so early to get my breakfast, that, although I did not

sleep at the window an hour, I smelt the smoke of the kitchen fire when

I started up with a terrible idea that it must be late in the afternoon.

But long after that, and long after I had heard the clinking of the

teacups and was quite ready, I wanted the resolution to go down stairs.

After all, I remained up there, repeatedly unlocking and unstrapping

my small portmanteau and locking and strapping it up again, until Biddy

called to me that I was late.

It was a hurried breakfast with no taste in it. I got up from the meal,

saying with a sort of briskness, as if it had only just occurred to me,

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"Well! I suppose I must be off!" and then I kissed my sister who was

laughing and nodding and shaking in her usual chair, and kissed

Biddy, and threw my arms around Joe's neck. Then I took up my little

portmanteau and walked out. The last I saw of them was, when I presently

heard a scuffle behind me, and looking back, saw Joe throwing an old

shoe after me and Biddy throwing another old shoe. I stopped then, to

wave my hat, and dear old Joe waved his strong right arm above his head,

crying huskily "Hooroar!" and Biddy put her apron to her face.

I walked away at a good pace, thinking it was easier to go than I had

supposed it would be, and reflecting that it would never have done to

have had an old shoe thrown after the coach, in sight of all the High

Street. I whistled and made nothing of going. But the village was very

peaceful and quiet, and the light mists were solemnly rising, as if to

show me the world, and I had been so innocent and little there, and all

beyond was so unknown and great, that in a moment with a strong heave

and sob I broke into tears. It was by the finger-post at the end of the

village, and I laid my hand upon it, and said, "Good by, O my dear, dear

friend!"

Heaven knows we need never be ashamed of our tears, for they are rain

upon the blinding dust of earth, overlying our hard hearts. I was

better after I had cried than before,--more sorry, more aware of my own

ingratitude, more gentle. If I had cried before, I should have had Joe

with me then.

So subdued I was by those tears, and by their breaking out again in the

course of the quiet walk, that when I was on the coach, and it was clear

of the town, I deliberated with an aching heart whether I would not get

down when we changed horses and walk back, and have another evening at

home, and a better parting. We changed, and I had not made up my mind,

and still reflected for my comfort that it would be quite practicable to

get down and walk back, when we changed again. And while I was occupied

with these deliberations, I would fancy an exact resemblance to Joe

in some man coming along the road towards us, and my heart would beat

high.--As if he could possibly be there!




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