Still sick.
She wasn’t sick. Not in the way this pocket-sized pixie was referring to. I knew that.
And knowing what happened between us was keeping Syd from a job I knew she loved more than her last one; on top of everything else I’d been feeling recently, I started feeling sick right along with her.
“Sir?”
I sighed and squeezed the back of my neck, then looked at the woman.
“No,” I answered firmly.
We weren’t friends. We weren’t anything.
She smiled politely.
“Just one of you? Or are you waiting for people?”
I was already turned around and halfway to the door when I mumbled an obvious and unnecessary, “Not staying.”
* * *
Beer number two in my hand, I leaned with elbows on the rail of my deck and stared out at the sunset-kissed waves over the light crowd settled on the beach.
Gorgeous night. Still hot as shit out, making the water a good temperature, I imagined.
Wasn’t like I was getting in it and enjoying myself.
Called Syd three more times since I got home from Whitecaps an hour ago between doing a whole fuckuva lot of nothing else, and believe it or not, I was growing sick of the sweet voice I never thought I’d get enough of.
If she asked me one more fucking time to leave a message after the beep, I was going to kill someone.
I inhaled deep, searching for calm but coming up short.
I was on edge and standing out here wasn’t helping. I should’ve known. Tried it yesterday and found no relief doing it, but I didn’t have anything else, so here I was doing it again.
If I wasn’t calling Syd, I was staring at her picture, and if I wasn’t doing that, I was out here, phone inside and a safe distance away from the water, because I knew if I dialed her standing on the deck and she hadn’t turned her shit on, I’d leave my message and then toss that fucker into the ocean.
Couldn’t have that happen, could I?
Movement stirred my awareness, and I slid my eyes to it. I spotted Jamie walking back to the house with his board under his arm.
“What up?” he yelled from below, propping his board against a post and taking the stairs rapidly.
I shook my head with the bottle to my lips, swallowed some Corona, and kept looking out at the water.
Jamie hit the planks below my feet and strolled my way.
“Fuck, Dash. You get some incurable STD from one of those bitches or somethin’? Shit.”
I turned my head to Jamie. “What?”
“Look at you.” He came to a stop a foot away, jutted his chin at me, then pushed salty wet hair out of his eyes. “You’re making me depressed, man, and I don’t even get remotely sad, you know that, but I’m on the brink. The fuckin’ brink, Dash. What’s up with you?”
I cut my eyes away.
“Nothing,” I mumbled.
“Bullshit,” he shot back, sounding a second away from throwing a punch and, thus, earning my eyes again. “You’ve been moping around the past two days, barely speaking to anyone including customers at work, who even after that shit went down four months ago, you still kept it professional and did your job, spoke to everybody who stopped in and acted like you wanted to be there. Now you’re barely doin’ that. If it keeps up, me or Cole are gonna have to start droppin’ lessons so we can hang around and make sure shit is gettin’ sold.”
“You sayin’ you have to babysit me?” I asked, straightening then and facing him head-on.
Might be me throwing the first punch.
I was bigger than Jamie. A little thicker in the arms and shoulders, but he was quick like a fucking feral cat and the same height as me.
It’d be a good matchup.
Jamie didn’t waver when I changed my stance and kept my gaze as he spoke.
“I’m sayin’ something’s up with you and it’s different than what’s been up with you the past four months. Shit, you were getting better. And I wasn’t the only one noticing. Cole brought it up last week sayin’ you were acting like the old Brian and you might be ready to paddle out soon.”
“That’s not fuckin’ happening,” I bit out.
“Yeah, I figured,” he replied, arms crossing over his chest, still dripping water. “Not that I agree with that decision but I fuckin’ get it.”
“Great. Glad you get it.”
I took another pull of my beer while Jamie stared at me, saying nothing for a solid four seconds.
Probably a record for him.
“It’s a girl,” he stated, head cocked, still staring.
I stared right back, not uttering a word.
He smiled.
Shit.
Asshole and his fucking gut instinct. Never failed him in the water or on land.
I should’ve stayed inside and kept on hitting Redial.
“It’s a woman,” Jamie clarified, finger pointed at my face. “You’re fucked up over some pussy, that’s what this is. Who is it? One of the girls you’ve shot with? Jayden? I bet it’s Jayden. You’ve been seeing her?”
I glared at my idiot best friend.
“Do me a favor? Stay off the site my dick is visible on.”
“Whoa.” His brows drew together as he leaned back. “I’m strictly there for the lesbian love. Never seen your dick. Don’t plan on seeing it. Videos are labeled, so thank fuck for that. Knew you shot with Jayden a couple weeks ago and put two and two together. That’s all.”
“It ain’t Jayden. Ain’t none of the ones on the site,” I informed him, eyes narrowing to add, “You call my girl pussy again and I’ll beat the shit outta you.”