“Nauseous and terrified. What do you think? He’s probably checking his watch every five seconds. Are you ready, honey? The photographer is here.”
Curtis turned me around and took a long look.
“Oh, Millie,” he sighed, his own eyes filling with tears. “You’re…”
“Don’t start,” I said, my throat instantly clamping shut with tears. We laughed shakily.
“I’ll go get Katie and your dad,” Curtis said, wiping his eyes on a monogrammed hankie. He left, and a second later, Katie came in.
“Hi!” I chirped. “I’m almost ready.”
“Yeah, great. Uh, listen, Millie…” Katie looked worried, not a reassuring expression to see on one’s maid of honor. “There’s someone here to see you,” Katie whispered, tucking a wisp of my hair behind my ear. “Scream if you need me.” She gave me a quick hug and hurried out, her dress swishing softly. Before I could wonder who my visitor was, there was a quiet knock, and the door opened again.
Trish.
I hadn’t seen her since she’d ordered me to drop Sam.
A month after landing in France, she’d enrolled in Le Cordon Bleu, where she’d been ever since, studying to become a chef. At Christmas, my parents and Danny had gone to Paris for the holidays. Trish and Sam had been to Notre Dame twice together, to see Danny off and for Parents Weekend, but Trish had not been on the Cape for a year and a half. I’d spoken to her on the phone a few times, and we’d been very cautious and cordial with each other. Of course, she’d been invited to the wedding…she was my sister, after all, but she’d been vague about coming.
She looked, as always, stunningly beautiful. Her hair was quite short, very French, and she wore a navy-blue dress, very Coco Chanel, very Juliette Binoche. She looked closer to twenty-five than forty.
“Hi,” I ventured, unsure of her purpose here. I gave her a stiff hug, which she returned with equal uncertainty.
“Hi. Sorry I didn’t let you know for sure…” Her voice trailed off. “Listen, have you got a minute?”
“Well, actually, we’re about to…sure,” I answered, my palms growing clammy. Please, please don’t let her ruin this day, I prayed.
“I’ll make it short,” Trish said. She came over to the edge of the bed and sat down, crossing her legs and making me feel, as she always did, a bit like a frump, even on my wedding day. I fluffed my dress out so it wouldn’t wrinkle and looked at my sister expectantly.
“Um, Millie,” she began, suddenly looking at her perfect manicure. “I’m sorry that I didn’t let you know I was coming. It was kind of a last-minute decision. In fact, I kind of sneaked in the back door. Nobody else knows I’m here, just Katie.”
“Oh,” I said.
She twisted a silver ring. “Anyway, I just…well, it’s not every day your ex-husband marries your sister. I wasn’t sure if you really wanted me here.”
“We invited you for just that reason, Trish,” I fibbed.
“Well, I guess you’d have to invite your sister,” she said. I didn’t say anything, just watched her fidget. It was so unlike her.
“All right, listen, Millie. I’ll say my piece, then I’ll fly, because you do have other things to do, right? I wanted to see you today. You’re my only sister, it’s your wedding day, and I just wanted to see you and wish you the best. I hope you and Sam are very happy together. Okay?”
I stared at my sister. She had always been so beautiful, so supremely confident, and yet here she was, babbling and nervous, and I suddenly felt a wave of…something. She stood up as if to leave.
“Is there something else you wanted?” I asked gently.
Trish turned around, quickly, took a breath as if to say something, then sighed. “Yes. I’m sorry I was such a crappy sister.”
“You weren’t—” I began automatically, then stopped myself as the shock of her words hit me.
“I was. I have been.” She sat back down. “Millie,” she said, taking a big breath, “I’ve done a lot of thinking lately. Since I left the Cape, I mean. I’ve thought about the two of us a lot. Not just because you were with Sam, but…well, we’ve never really been close. And since I was older, I guess it was my fault.”
“Trish—”
“No, it was. I mean, when we were kids, that was one thing, sisters fight all the time, right? But when we were older…I should have been nicer to you, Millie, but to be honest, I was just so jealous.”
An incredulous snort burst out of me.
“I was,” Trish protested. “You were always the smart one. Mom and Dad were always so proud of your grades and your advanced placement courses, and your college and on and on. And I was just the pretty one.” She stopped, her face flushing pink. “Whoops.”
“Well, it’s true. You’re still the pretty one, Trish.”
“No, Millie. Take a look in that mirror. You’re beautiful.” Her gentle words brought tears to my eyes. It was the first time that I could remember Trish ever saying anything so nice to me.
“I’ve made a lot of mistakes, Millie,” Trish said slowly. “I shouldn’t have pinned all my dreams on Sam. I was just a kid back then, and I was so afraid he was going to have this wonderful, glamorous life without me, so I got pregnant. I was too scared to see if he’d stay with me otherwise. And then, when I left him for Avery, that was even worse. The same mistake, thinking a man could make me happy, and that time I was old enough to know better.”
She paused, looking down at her sleek shoes, and when she spoke again, her voice was husky. “But I think the biggest mistake has been keeping you at arm’s length, Millie. At the end of the day, if your own sister doesn’t love you, then what kind of a person must you be?”
“But I do love you, Trish.”
As the words left my mouth, I realized they were true. Sure, there were plenty of times when I hadn’t liked my sister, but underneath the irritation and jealousy and rejection that I’d always felt, there it was—the rock-solid love you could only feel for a person who shared your gene pool.
“And I’ve always been jealous of you,” I went on, reaching out to hold her hand. “Not just because you’re so beautiful, though I have to say, it wasn’t easy being the dumpy sister of the swan princess. But also because you were always so together, so confident. You were always so sure of yourself, in a way that I never was. And you…you had Sam.”
“Well, now it’s your turn,” Trish said, cracking a smile.
“I guess so,” I said, smiling back. I grabbed a tissue and wiped my eyes, smearing my so-called waterproof mascara.
A knock came on the door, and Curtis stuck his head in. “Millie, Mitch saw the evil queen! She’s—oh, sorry!” he said, stunned, popping back out. “Sorry!” he said again through the closed door. Trish rolled her eyes.
“I should let you finish getting ready,” Trish said. “I’m glad we talked, Millie.”
“Me, too, Trish,” I said. “I’d like us to be closer.”
Trish’s big chocolate eyes filled with tears. “That would be great,” she whispered. She wiped her eyes (her mascara didn’t smear) and stood.
“Here, let me fix your makeup,” she said, picking up a compact and frowning at its label. “I should really send you some better stuff. Oh, shit, sorry.” She grinned sheepishly, then dabbed some powder under my eyes. “We’re about to have a lot in common,” she went on, opening the mascara for a reapplication. “Sam will get on your nerves, you know. He’s always right, and that gets pretty irritating. And he sulks when he’s mad. Well, you’ll find out, if you haven’t already. You can call me to complain. I’ll know just what you’re talking about.”
I laughed as she finished repairing me. She stepped back for a closer look. “There. Perfect. And Millie—”
“Yes?”
“Sam’s the best guy in the world.” Trish flashed me her brilliant smile, and I stepped up and hugged her hard. After all these years, my sister had come through.
“You have to stay, Trish,” I said.
“Oh, I…I don’t know,” she murmured. “I don’t want to…”
“Upstage me?” I suggested. She gave a shaky laugh. “Really, Trish. If you’re okay with it, I’d really like you to be here.”
She smiled, took a breath and nodded. “Okay. Absolutely.”
I went to the door and whispered to Katie, then returned to Trish.
“Nobody knows you’re here?” I asked.
“Just Katie and your friend there.”
Just then, Danny came in. “What’s up, Millie?” he asked. Then he saw his mother.
“Mom!” He bounded over to her and enveloped her in a huge hug. “Good for you, Mom. I knew you’d make it.” He murmured something to her, still hugging her tight, and she kissed his cheek soundly, her eyes bright with tears once more. “Come on, Mom,” Danny continued. “We’ll definitely nail the award for ‘Best Adjusted Family Members.’ And at least we can dance. Have you seen Millie and Sam? Total car wreck.”
“I resent that,” I said, laughing.
Trish looked at me, her eyes hopeful. “Are you sure, Millie?”
“Positive. Danny, why don’t you take your mom downstairs, then send Grandpa up so we can get this show on the road, okay?”
“You bet,” Danny said. “And, Mil, you look really pretty, by the way. Aunt Stepmother. It’s so freaky.” He pretended to shudder, then turned to Trish and took her arm. “Mom, I’m so glad you came. Let’s go surprise Dad.”
“Thanks, Millie,” Trish whispered.
“No problem.” I smiled wetly as Curtis came back in.
“Sorry about that, Trish,” he muttered.
“Which one are you again?” Trish asked. She flashed me a grin and I felt a rush of affection for her as she left with her son.
Curtis and I followed them to the landing, then hunkered down.
“What’s going on?” Katie hissed, kneeling next to us.
“Shh. Look.” We crouched down low enough to see as Danny and Trish entered the salon. We saw Sam do a double take when he saw Trish. Then, as a huge smile lit up his face, he went over to Trish and kissed her on the cheek, hugged her. We couldn’t hear what they were saying, but we didn’t need to. The best guy in the world, indeed. He looked up suddenly and our eyes met, and for a second, it was just the two of us, hearts full, ready for the rest of our life.
My dad lumbered up the stairs.
“I’ll get our flowers,” Katie said, zipping into the bedroom.
“You ready, punkin?” my dad asked as I stood up and smoothed out my dress.
“You bet.”
“Let’s get going, then. It’s time for Sam Nickerson to steal another one of my daughters.”
Katie reappeared with our bouquets. Glancing up, Curtis nodded and gave the string quartet the high sign. The music started, and I went downstairs to marry the love of my life.