As I walk back to my room I feel my heart breaking with every step I take. I don't have time to cry right now I need to suck it up. I close my door and walk to the closet I take out my luggage and put away the envelopes with the money. I change into some sweats and a hoodie. I change my high heels for some running shoes. I walk over to my desk and open up my notebook to start writing.
Dear Papi,
By the time you read this letter I will be long gone. This has been the toughest decision I have ever had to make it's not easy leaving you behind. I didn't make this decision over night this is some thing I have been planing of doing for a very long time now. I can't count how many nights I have stayed up thinking of doing this but never had the guts to do it until now. I want you know that I love you daddy with all my heart and I will always love you no matter what. Your my dad and the only parent I have ever known. I want to thank you for everything you have done for me please know that I appreciated it but I can't keep living like this no more. I have never told you this but the day that I found out the truth about who you were devastated me. Do you know what it feels like to get your heart broken by the one person that should be protecting you from it? God let me tell you it hurt like hell. You was suppose to be the one to help me through my first heart break not cause it. I had no one to help me nurse my heart back to normal. Everything I thought I knew about you ended up being a lie. It's not like I haven't tried looking the other way trust me I have but I can't keep pretending like nothing is wrong. I refuse to keep living like this. I'm not made for this life I know I can't ask you to drop everything for me because I know that you can't and I understand that. I hope you can understand and respect my decision. I don't want this life dad I want some thing different for me. Remember when you ask me what I wanted for my birthday? Well this is my birthday wish I want you to let me go. Please dad don't go looking for me I'll be fine don't worry. After all I am my father's daughter. I need this dad please let me have it. This isn't about you dad it's about me wanting to be free to be normal for once. I love you daddy always and for ever don't ever forget that.