"Do you hate him?" she softly ask.
I feel like some one just punch me in my gut. How can she think that I hate my dad? What kind of person does she think I am?
"Of course not Sammy don't you ever say that again. I love him with all my heart and it's killing me being away from him and from all of you but I needed this please Sam keep an eye on him and please don't tell no one I called promise me" my voice cracks. I run my finger under my eye and wipe the tear that escape.
"I promise prima are you going to call me again?" she shyly ask.
"Yea I am going to keep calling to check up on you and on dad okay?" my voice sounds shaky. I need to get my emotions under control and fast.
"I miss you Jane" her voice cracks and I know she is about to cry. I close my eyes trying to concentrate on my breathing.
"I miss you too Sam I have to go call you soon love you bye" I hang up because I can't control myself anymore. It hurts to know that my father is miserable. I really do miss all my family. I miss hanging with Sammy and cooking with Nina. I even miss eating dinner with my dad no matter where he was he always made in it time for dinner. I have never been away from them not even for a day yet along weeks. I turn off the lights and snuggle in bed. For the first time since I been away from home I cried myself to sleep.