“I think we’re going to have to go a step further if we want something lasting. What we’ve done in the past just hasn’t worked.” Sam paused, her eyes locked with his. “Is that a bad thing?”
“No,” he answered honestly. Logan had been thinking the same thing. At least since he met Elijah. For whatever reason, he felt as though there was a connection with Elijah. And it wasn’t sexual on his part because he wasn’t interested in men, but something in his gut told him this was going to be more.
To prove it, Logan had actually invited Elijah to play golf with them today. Elijah had kindly declined, letting him know that he had to fly to Florida and wouldn’t be back until Sunday morning.
So, yeah, Logan was doing something he’d never done before too. He was establishing a connection.
He’d already prepared himself for that. And after his conversation with Elijah that afternoon, he’d heard the unspoken request in the other man’s tone. Elijah had fallen for Sam. Maybe not love at first sight, but likely damn near close. Elijah could do that though and never have to worry about letting go of Beth. Not only was Logan going to be sharing Sam with Elijah, Sam was going to be sharing Elijah with Beth.
“Is that still what you want? For us to include another man in the bedroom?”
Logan’s throat constricted.
The bedroom.
God, they’d never had another man in their bed. Never. He wasn’t sure he could do it now. That was the bed he shared with his wife.
“Are you asking me…?” Logan paused, swallowed. He didn’t want to go there yet. Clearing his throat, he started again, “Are you asking me if I want to watch another man fuck you until you scream? If so, then yes. I want to feel you crushed between the two of us while I’m buried in your ass and he fucks your pussy.” Logan was going to be very explicit. It’s the only way he knew how to explain himself. “I want to watch you with a cock deep in your mouth while I’m buried in your pussy, pounding into you harder and harder.”
His cock was back to full mast once again.
“But this is just sex for you?”
Logan heard the disappointment in her tone.
“No,” he answered with ease. Much more so than he expected. “I understand what you need, Sam. I’ve never wanted a casual fling with anyone. You mean more to me than that. I don’t want to share you with just anyone. If I’m going to share you with someone, I want it to be… fulfilling.”
“But you’re scared I’m going to fall in love with someone else?”
Logan’s heart twisted. The thought of Sam loving another man, it stole his breath.
“I… Fuck, Sam,” he groaned, this time turning his eyes away from her.
“Talk to me,” she pleaded, her voice soft. “We need to be on the same page, or we’ve got to do something different.”
“Are you ready to fall in love with someone else?” he asked, his gut twisting painfully.
Sam cupped his cheeks and stared back at him. “I will never love another man the way that I love you. Never. I’ve never loved anyone the way that I love you. I’m not worried about that, and you shouldn’t be either.”
Logan didn’t miss the fact that she didn’t deny that she could fall in love with someone else.
For now, he wasn’t going to push the issue. It was a moot point anyway, since they hadn’t yet gotten to that place in their lives. If and when it happened, Logan would deal with it then. They would deal with it. Together.
“Sam,” he said, wrapping his arms around her waist and pulling her closer. “God, help me, I still want it, but, more importantly, I want what makes you happy. I know you get attached and I’ve learned to deal with that.”
“But I still only love you,” she said again.
“I know that.” He hoped that anyway. “I know you’ll come to care about any person we’re involved with. And I’m all right with that.” Mostly.
He stared back at her, for the first time needing her confirmation more than he needed anything else. He wanted to truly believe that she wouldn’t fall in love with another man, wouldn’t want to invite another man permanently into their lives, but he knew how the heart worked. As much as he wished, he knew he couldn’t have it both ways. The heart didn’t react that way.
“I’m not interested in sharing my bed with another man, but I would like a commitment. Someone who isn’t going to wander in and out of our lives so quickly,” he added when she didn’t say anything.
Logan had yet to inform her about Elijah’s baggage, as Luke had referred to it. The man had a complex history. Logan didn’t feel as though it were his place to share the details. He’d let Elijah talk to her, share that part of himself. But, he could at least move forward tonight with the knowledge that Elijah just might be the man who could help fulfill their fantasies even if he did present some complications.