She couldn't bring herself to see what happened when Past-Death returned to the mortal world five days before. Deidre dropped her head to her arms on the table. She feared seeing them happy again, knowing she really was nothing more than a disposable stand-in until they were able to be together again. Just as much, she feared seeing them miserable, because of her brief involvement in the mix. She wanted Gabriel to be happy but couldn't bear to see it, not when her own world was still so new and frightening.
Deidre's heart felt like it was breaking. She was never meant to outlive meeting Gabriel. From what she saw, Past-Death and Wynn were supposed to make sure of that.
Darkyn claimed there was, but she saw no silver lining to her existence. She was in Hell, because there was nowhere else for her lost soul to go.