***

The following day I again trekked down the Schuylkill Expressway, this time passing Laurel Hill on my way to Atlantic City. As angry as I thought I was with Genise, I felt obligated to visit her. Diane gave me directions to the cemetery and Genise and Jerome's gravesites. I stared blankly at Genise's grave. I thought of our afternoon. I remembered what she told me of Shannie's expectations. I remembered her smile, her freckles, and her stricken expression as I betrayed our secret. I walked away. At Jerome's grave, I remembered little, other than guilt for not being able to attend his funeral.

I decided to drive by Genise's apartment in Lower Chelsea. This little corner of the city, tucked along the Intra-coastal waterway could pass for a ghost town. I parked my father's car and stood on the sea wall across from Genise's old brick apartment. A strong wind whipped across the bay stinging my face. I gazed across the water towards the setting sun. Although beautiful, I preferred the aesthetics of a Bitterroot sunset; mountains are wondrous, mysterious things. I jumped off the sea wall, climbed into the car and headed for Beyford. As I left Atlantic City I caught my last glimpse of the Atlantic Ocean in the rearview mirror.

***

On New Year's Eve day as Diane took leave for a few hours to visit Shannie, my father and I watched the world greet the new millennium on the same television Shannie, Diane and I witnessed the opening of Desert Storm. There's irony for you, I thought.

"Nervous?" I asked my father.

"Nope," my father lied. "What's there to be nervous about?"

"It's only your wedding day," I chided.

"Second time's easier. Anyway, I'm not marrying the wicked witch of San Francisco."

If you only knew how envious I am, I didn't say, instead opting to watch Sydney Australia great the new millennium. I'd give the world if today was Shannie and my big day.

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"You know," my father spoke. "I could have told everyone that this Y2K hype was much to do about nothing. Do you know that in the computer world it's a status symbol if you have to work tonight. What a crock of shit. Serves 'em right," my father laughed. "I'd rather get married then sit in a stale, fart smelling office sipping cheap coffee. Idiots."

"You are nervous," I reproached my old man. "I never heard you talk so much."

"Maybe excited," my father snickered.

By afternoon the house was host to a flurry of activity. I escaped for a walk down Main Street and across the hallowed tracks. I spent the last day of the century much the way I did my first day with Shannie, eating candy while watching the river from atop the Main Street Bridge.