“I need to be inside of you, Lucie.” She heard the urgency in his tone, and her body mirrored the need she could hear in his voice.
Spreading her legs with his knees, Kane eased down closer to her, situating himself between her thighs, but then he moved, glancing around the room as though looking for something.
“What’s wrong?” she asked.
“Condom.”
Why the idea hadn’t even crossed her mind, she didn’t know. They didn’t need a condom as far as pregnancy went. Not this time. And no, it wasn’t because of the fact that they had a child already. It had been stupid on her part to have not used protection the first time they were together, but Lucie had been so overwhelmed that night, so torn up with the emotions that had blinded her, she hadn’t even thought about it.
“I’m on the pill,” she told him, her eyes meeting his and an unspoken agreement settling between them. “I’ve been tested, and I’m clean.”
After that one night, the night Haley had been conceived, Lucie hadn’t been with another man, and yes, she had immediately gone to the doctor to get tested for sexually transmitted diseases because of her own stupidity. And she had routinely been tested after that for a full year. Why she hadn’t taken a pregnancy test at that point, she still didn’t know.
“I’ve never...” Kane let the words hang between them, and Lucie suspected he knew what he was about to say was a lie.
He had. They had had unprotected sex that one night so long ago so what he was about to say wasn’t true. She couldn’t help but wonder whether it had happened to him on more than one occasion. She didn’t want to think about it...
“Except with you, Lucie.” Kane leaned in closer, his mouth brushing hers. “I’ve never had sex without a condom. I swear to you.”
She believed him, although she wasn’t certain that she should. If anything, Lucie knew Kane would never hurt her intentionally. Even though she had kept Haley’s paternity a secret from him, it hadn’t been because she feared what he would do. She hadn’t wanted to trap him and each night when she put her precious little girl to sleep for the last five years, Lucie had prayed Kane would remember, and she would’ve been relieved of the horrible secret she’d held inside of her.
“I know,” she whispered as she pressed farther into him, trying to pull him closer because that’s exactly where she needed him right then.
Kane maneuvered himself until he was between her thighs, the broad, thick head of his penis pressing against the sensitive tissue. She needed him, more now than ever, and she wanted to feel him inside of her again. This time while they were both right there in the moment.
When Kane pressed farther into her, her body relaxed as a sharp burst of pain ricocheted from between her legs, making her whimper.
“Am I hurting you?” he asked, and Lucie met his eyes once more.
“No. Please, Kane.” She didn’t know how to express what she wanted. Did she beg him to fuck her? Or plead with him to make love to her? This felt like so much more, at least to her. Even the pain was welcome because she knew it was the only way she could get closer to him.
“Baby...” Kane leaned in, his lips pressing into hers. “God you feel so good.”
Her body consumed him entirely, pulling him deeper as her hands trailed over the rigid, tight muscles of his back, outlining them with her fingertips as tears threatened to spill from her eyes. It was too much.
Finally, when he was seated fully inside of her, Kane began to move, rocking gently against her, pushing himself off of her while she tried to pull him closer. Lucie didn’t want him to see the tears in her eyes because it wasn’t pain that was causing them. No, they were a result of the love threatening to burst free.
“Lucie.” Her name on his lips was like a plea and their eyes met, held, as he began to thrust inside of her, retreating until her body was begging for more. “Don’t let go of me.”
He wasn’t just speaking from the physical sense; Lucie could feel the emotion in his words, the outpouring of something much more intimate than just his desire to be touched.
“Oh, Kane,” she whispered his name, pulling him closer, trying to close the gap between them until there was no choice but for them to be one. “Please.”
“Always, Lucie.”
When their bodies took over, her heart took a backseat to the glorious pleasure of having him inside of her, feeling the sensual glide of his penis against greedy nerve endings as he began thrusting harder, her hips rising to meet his.
Lucie was unable to stop the tears from falling, but they weren’t what he thought, so she buried her head in the crook of his neck and held him closer, rocking against him as the overwhelming sensations took over, her orgasm spiraling out of control. “Kane! Oh, God, Kane!”