'Have you had some bad news?'
'No.'
'Is it … a business thing?' I persist. 'Or … or is it some kind of personal …'
Jack looks up, a sudden flash of anger in his face.
'I said, it's nothing. Quit it.'
Great. That puts me in my place, doesn't it?
'Would you both care for dessert?' A waiter's voice interrupts me, and I give him a strained smile.
'Actually, I don't think so.'
I've had enough of this evening. I just want to get it over and go home.
'Very well.' The waiter smiles at me. 'Any coffee?'
'She does want dessert,' says Jack, over my head.
What? What did he just say? The waiter looks at me hesitantly.
'No I don't!' I say firmly.
'Come on, Emma,' says Jack, and now his warm, teasing tone is back. 'You don't have to pretend with me. You told me on the plane, this is what you always say. You say you don't want a dessert, when really, you do.'
'Well, this time, I really don't.'
'It's specially created for you.' Jack leans forward. 'Häagen-Dazs, meringue, Bailey's sauce on the side …'
Suddenly I feel completely patronized. How does he know what I want? Maybe I just want fruit. Maybe I want nothing. He has no idea about me. None at all.
'I'm not hungry.' I push my chair back.
'Emma, I know you. You want it, really—'
'You don't know me!' I cry angrily, before I can stop myself. 'Jack, you may know a few random facts about me. But that doesn't mean you know me!'
'What?' Jack stares at me.
'If you knew me,' I say in a trembling voice, 'you would have realized that when I go out to dinner with someone, I like them to listen to what I'm saying. I like them to treat me with a bit of respect, and not tell me to "quit it" when all I'm doing is trying to make conversation …'
Jack is staring at me in astonishment.
'Emma, are you OK?'
'No. I'm not OK! You've practically ignored me all evening.'
'That's not fair.'
'You have! You've been on autopilot. Ever since your mobile phone started going …'
'Look.' Jack rubs his face. 'A few things are going on in my life at the moment, they're very important—'
'Fine. Well, let them go on without me.'
Tears are stinging my eyes as I stand up and reach for my bag. I so wanted this to be a perfect evening. I had such high hopes. I can't believe it's gone so wrong.
'That's right! You tell him!' the woman in gold supportively calls from across the room. 'You know, this girl's got a lovely husband of her own,' she exclaims to Jack. 'She doesn't need you!'
'Thank you for dinner,' I say, staring fixedly at the tablecloth, as one of the waiters magically appears at my side with my coat.
'Emma,' says Jack, getting to his feet in disbelief. 'You're not seriously going.'
'l am.'
'Give it another chance. Please. Stay and have some coffee. I promise I'll talk—'
'I don't want any coffee,' I say, as the waiter helps me on with my coat.
'Mint tea, then. Chocolates! I ordered you a box of Godiva truffles …' His tone is entreating, and just for an instant I waver. I love Godiva truffles.
But no, I've made up my mind.
'I don't care,' I gulp. 'I'm going. Thank you very much,' I add to the waiter. 'How did you know I wanted my coat?'
'We make it our business to know,' says the waiter discreetly.
'You see?' I say to Jack. 'They know me.'
There's an instant in which we stare at each other.
'Fine,' says Jack at last, and gives a resigned shrug. 'Fine. Daniel will take you home. He should be waiting outside in the car.'
'I'm not going home in your car!' I say in horror. 'I'll make my own way, thanks.'
'Emma. Don't be stupid.'
'Goodbye. And thanks very much,' I add to the waiter. 'You were all very attentive and nice to me.'
I hurry out of the restaurant to discover it's started to rain. And I don't have an umbrella.
Well, I don't care. I'm going anyway. I stride along the streets, skidding slightly on the wet pavement, feeling raindrops mingling with tears on my face. I have no idea where I am. I don't even know where the nearest tube is, or where …
Hang on. There's a bus stop. I look down the numbers and see one that goes to Islington.
Well, fine. I'll take the bus home. And then I'll have a nice cup of hot chocolate. And maybe some icecream in front of the telly.
It's one of those bus shelters with a roof and little seats, and I sit down, thanking God my hair won't get any wetter. I'm just staring blankly at a car advertisement, wondering what that Häagen-Dazs pudding tasted like and whether the meringue was the stiff white kind or that gorgeous chewy, caramel kind, when a big silver car purrs up at the pavement.
I don't believe it.
'Please,' says Jack, getting out. 'Let me take you home.'
'No,' I say, without turning my head.