She supposed that if she were stronger, braver, she’d have left Penwood House years ago. But would that have really made much difference? She might not like living with Araminta, but she wasn’t likely to improve her lot in life by leaving. She might have liked to have been a governess, and she was certainly well qualified for the position, but jobs were scarce for those without references, and Araminta certainly wasn’t going to give her one.
“You’re very quiet,” Benedict said softly.
“I was just thinking.”
“About?”
“About what I’d miss—and what I wouldn’t miss— should my life drastically change.”
His eyes grew intense. “And do you expect it to drastically change?”
She shook her head and tried to keep the sadness out of her voice when she answered, “No.”
His voice grew so quiet it was almost a whisper. “Do you want it to change?”
“Yes,” she sighed, before she could stop herself. “Oh, yes.”
He took her hands and brought them to his lips, gently kissing each one in turn. “Then we shall begin right now,” he vowed. “And tomorrow you shall be transformed.”
‘Tonight I am transformed,” she whispered. “Tomorrow I shall disappear.”
Benedict drew her close and dropped the softest, most fleeting of kisses onto her brow. “Then we must pack a lifetime into this very night.”
Chapter 3
This Author waits with bated breath to see what costumes the ton will choose for the Bridgerton masquerade. It is rumored that Eloise Bridgerton plans to dress as Joan of Arc, and Penelope Featherington, out for her third season and recently returned from a visit with Irish cousins, will don the costume of a leprechaun. Miss Posy Reiling, stepdaughter to the late Earl ofPenwood, plans a costume of mermaid, which This Author personally cannot wait to behold, but her elder sister, Miss Rosamund Reiling, has been very close-lipped about her own attire.
As far the men, if previous masquerade balls are any indication, the portly will dress as Henry VIII, the more fit as Alexander the Great or perhaps the devil, and the bored (the eligible Bridgerton brothers sure to be among these ranks) as themselves—basic black evening kit, with only a demi-mask as a nod to the occasion.
LADY WHISTLEDOWN’S SOCIETY PAPERS, 5 JUNE 1815
“Dance with me,” Sophie said impulsively.
His smile was amused, but his fingers twined tightly with hers as he murmured, “I thought you didn’t know how.”
“You said you would teach me.”
He stared at her for a long moment, his eyes boring into hers, then he tugged on her hand and said, “Come with me.” Pulling her along behind him, they slipped down a hallway, climbed a flight of stairs, and then rounded a corner, emerging in front of a pair of French doors. Benedict jiggled the wrought-iron handles and swung the doors open, revealing a small private terrace, adorned with potted plants and two chaise lounges.
“Where are we?” Sophie asked, looking around. “Right above the ballroom terrace.” He shut the doors behind them. “Can’t you hear the music?”
Mostly, what Sophie could hear was the low rumble of endless conversation, but if she strained her ears, she could hear the faint lilt of the orchestra. “Handel,” she said with a delighted smile. “My governess had a music box with this very tune.”
“You loved your governess very much,” he said quietly. Her eyes had been closed as she hummed along with the music, but when she heard his words, she opened them in a startled fashion. “How did you know?”
“The same way I knew you were happier in the country.” Benedict reached out and touched her cheek, one gloved finger trailing slowly along her skin until it reached the line of her jaw. “I can see it in your face.”
She held silent for a few moments, then pulled away, saying, “Yes, well, I spent more time with her than with anyone else in the household.”
“It sounds a lonely upbringing,” he said quietly. “Sometimes it was.” She walked over to the edge of the balcony and rested her hands on the balustrade as she stared out into the inky night. “Sometimes it wasn’t.” Then she turned around quite suddenly, her smile bright, and Benedict knew that she would not reveal anything more about her childhood.
“Your upbringing must have been the complete opposite of lonely,” she said, “with so many brothers and sisters about.”
“You know who I am,” he stated.
She nodded. “I didn’t at first.”
He walked over to the balustrade and leaned one hip against it, crossing his arms. “What gave me away?”
“It was your brother, actually. You looked so alike—”
“Even with our masks?”
“Even with your masks,” she said with an indulgent smile. “Lady Whistledown writes about you quite often, and she never passes up an opportunity to comment upon how alike you look.”
“And do you know which brother I am?”
“Benedict,” she replied. “If indeed Lady Whistledown is correct when she says that you are tallest among your brothers.”
“You’re quite the detective.”
She looked slightly embarrassed. “I merely read a gossip sheet. It makes me no different from the rest of the people here.”
Benedict watched her for a moment, wondering if she realized that she’d revealed another clue to the puzzle of her identity. If she’d recognized him only from Whistledown, then she’d not been out in society for long, or perhaps not at all. Either way, she was not one of the many young ladies to whom his mother had introduced him.