My hands gripped over top of her wrists and I pressed them into the bed, as I more or less growled into her face, "I'm not letting you go!" My head started to descend back towards her neck.
"Please hear me out! Please John!"
I stopped.
"Thank you! I'll make it quick I promise!"
There she was again with the infernal manners!
Her tone was utter sincerity as she spoke, "If you stop right now and give me the respect that I deserve, as a person, I will pledge myself to you for forever!"
"What?" I exclaimed completely baffled by her words.
"If you give me time to get to know you, understand you, and even care for you, when I'm ready I'll become your lover. I'll do anything you ask of me and I'll try to please you in any way that you want. I won't hold anything back from you. More than that I'll cook for you, and anything else a mate would do for her spouse. I'll bear your children and I'll give you my heart, if you want it. John you can have a small part of me or you can have all of me. The choice is yours, either way I'll honor my part of the deal and be yours."
I couldn't believe it! How did she twist up words so emotionally? I pressed down on her wrists harder trying to gain some measure of control over the situation that was spiraling away from me.
"I'm the one who's in control here!" I shouted down into her face.
She was crying softly now, "Yes you are and I hope you make the right choice for both of us!"
I stared at her feeling my astonishment grow.
"Why would you offer me so much of yourself?"
"I have the option of learning to enjoy the rest of my life with you or spend it in shame shattered and broken by you. Which would you choose?" Her eyes were completely sincere, as she stared up at me imploringly.
I had never expected anything like this! I didn't know what to think!
"You're just saying all this to get out of me taking you!" I accused hotly.
She shook her head vigorously no, "No I'm not! I swear it!"
"I've been tricked before!" I said not letting up on her.
"But not by me! I swear it on my faith that what I have said is the truth!"
"Faith! What good is faith?" I raged.
"It's all I have left." She responded softly looking up at me in complete sincerity.
I was probably hurting her wrists. I let go of them. I didn't want to hurt her. I just thought that was the only way I could ever have her.