“Maybe they need to warm up?” Darcy’s father had always been in charge of the lights. But both her parents were in the kitchen, flooding the house with the smells of roti and coconut and sugar at high heat. “Why is Dad cooking, anyway? I thought he wasn’t allowed to when guests were coming over.”
“I think they want us to have quality time together.” Nisha lifted one foot, half imitating Ganesha’s pose. “In other words, they want me to acquire gossip.”
“Seriously?”
“You should hear Annika every time I get a text from you. She wants details. She wants analysis.”
“Ugh. I thought they were getting better.” Darcy lay back on the carpet. “Dad hasn’t bugged me about going back to college in, like, a month. Driving me home from the train last night, he even asked me how my career was going!”
“Yeah, I talk about your ‘career’ all the time, mostly to annoy them. But now they’ve started saying it too.” Nisha placed her hands in prayer position and bowed at the waist. “You’re welcome.”
“Thanks,” Darcy said. “But can I point out that it really is a career? Like, with actual money?”
“So you say. But without my parental engineering, the elder Patels would be visiting you once a week.” Nisha paused to wipe away an imaginary tear. “And in return I am given no twinkling lights.”
It was true, the lights were still only blinking.
“But I brought you presents!” Darcy pointed to a pile of boxes wrapped in bright orange and waiting to be deployed around the shrine. The presents had been painstakingly selected over the last few months, because Nisha was notoriously honest about gift quality. They included a subway map phone cover, train tickets to New York for spring break, and a T-shirt emblazoned with a death-metal version of Glitter-Mane, Nisha’s second-favorite Sparkle Pony.
“Those are mere objects, Patel. You made me guess all the good gossip.”
Darcy rolled her eyes. This was all because Aunt Lalana had found out about Imogen first.
“So do you only like girls now?” Nisha asked.
“I don’t know.”
“That answer bores me, Patel. You must look at people now and then. Like, random hotties on the street. Are they ever boys?”
“I don’t look at anyone else. I don’t think about it that way.” The lights were speeding up a little, almost twinkling now. “Maybe I’m Imogen-sexual.”
Nisha snorted. “I believe the technical term is ‘adorkable.’ ”
“Why do you care, anyway?”
“I’m just curious. Plus, the elder Patels are going to ask these questions after you leave. It’s my job to have the answers!”
Darcy took a deep breath. “I don’t know if I’m going to tell them yet.”
“Don’t be a chickenshit, Patel.”
There was that word again. For a moment, Darcy wondered if Imogen and Nisha were coordinating their attacks.
“Seriously, it’s the first day of Pancha Ganapati,” Nisha said. “Perfect timing!”
It took a moment for Darcy to understand. Ever since they were little kids, she and Nisha had always focused on the last day of Pancha Ganapati, when presents were opened. She’d half forgotten that tonight, the end of the first day, was about clearing up misunderstandings in the family, about making things right.
“When did you get all religious?”
Nisha shrugged. “I’m in it for the math.”
“What math?”
“Dude. We invented zero. And there’s this mantra from three thousand years ago—it’s just the powers of ten, from a hundred up to a trillion. How cool is that?”
Darcy raised an eyebrow. “It’s possible that you and I have different interests.”
“Listen. Dad gave me this book for Hindu kids, and it said that if you burned every copy of the Vedas, the same truths would be rediscovered. That only makes sense if you’re talking about the math.”
“Huh.” Darcy glanced at the painting of Ganesha. The lights had finally started to shimmer. “That’s what all this is to you? Just numbers?”
“Just numbers?” Nisha snorted, and her face took on a look of adamantine certainty. “The universe is math on fire, Patel. That’s my faith.”
Darcy didn’t answer, thinking of Sagan and his Angelina Jolie Paradox. Maybe that was the point of truth—you could erase it all you wanted, and it was there to be discovered again.
* * *
For dinner that night, Annika Patel had gone into full Gujarati feast mode, arraying half a dozen small dishes before each place at the table. In addition to the usual okra and chickpeas, there were curries made of ivy gourd and bitter melon. The roti was homemade, as attested by its charred edges and the loud cursing of Darcy’s father all that afternoon.
Even for Darcy, who had rejected the family’s vegetarianism so long ago, the smells rising up from the table were mouthwatering. And as still more side dishes arrived, she was hit with a pang of missing Imogen. It would have been wonderful to explain the nuances to her, to help her dissect the yogurt-soaked dumplings and steamed taro leaves, and watch her sample the sinus-clearing chutneys.
To know a family is to eat its feasts, Darcy thought, deciding that next year Imogen would be here.
She glanced across the table at Aunt Lalana, who had arrived just before dinner. She was looking back at Darcy with expectation in her eyes.
Great. More pressure.
“This looks amazing, Mrs. Patel,” Carla said, and Sagan nodded. The two were traditional guests for the first night of Pancha Ganapati, and both were back from a semester of college looking older and wiser. Carla’s hair was cut short and sleek, and Sagan had replaced his glasses with contact lenses. Such superficial changes, but they reminded Darcy that her friends were growing up at least as fast as she was.
When her mother asked what courses they were taking, Carla launched into a disquisition on the British eighteenth-century novel. “There was this whole genre called the supernatural explained. It’s not even the 1800s yet, but all these writers are already sick of paranormal. So they start writing horror novels where everything creepy turns out to have a logical explanation. Well, sort of logical.”
“You mean, like every Scooby-Doo ending ever?” Sagan asked.
“Exactly! They want the genre tropes, but they can’t handle the genre tropes.”
“Those meddling kids,” Sagan said, tearing a piece of roti in half.
“I always hated that when I was little,” Darcy said. “Are the books any good?”
Carla shrugged. “The sentences are crazy long. But it’s like Shakespeare; you get used to it in fifteen minutes.”
“I suppose Darcy will be an English major too,” Annika Patel said. “Imagine, getting to read novels all day long.”
There was a quick exchange of glances among the teenagers at the table. Darcy’s college career was still a given, of course. But it wasn’t her mother’s assumption that made Darcy bristle. It was the fact that she already read several novels a week. Maybe she hadn’t plowed through any eighteenth-century gothics lately, but half of what she read hadn’t even been published yet. Surely that was more interesting than being forced to swallow proto-Scooby-Doo.
She was about to make this point when her mother spoke again.
“Speaking of novels, I have an announcement.” Annika paused a moment, gathering everyone’s attention, then turned to Darcy. “I finally read your book.”
There was another pause, another exchange of glances.
“You were supposed to wait for it to be published!”
“That’s what I was going to do. But then I realized it wasn’t coming out till next September.”
“Only two hundred and seventy-six days,” Nisha said brightly.
“I mean, really,” Annika said. “Does it take eighteen months just to make a book?”
Darcy’s mind flooded with answers—sales conferences and copyedits, advanced readers’ copies and cover designs—because she’d asked the same question herself many, many times.
But what she said was: “And you read all of it?”
“Did you think I wouldn’t make it through?” Her mother laughed. “It takes more than a little violence to scare me off.”
“She read that first chapter out loud to me,” her father said, all smiles. “Very chilling.”
“Thanks.” Darcy waited for the rest. Not more praise, but her mother’s recognition of Rajani’s ghost.
“I loved how they could go anywhere in the world, just by wishing.”
“The river isn’t exactly wishing, Mom.”
“I suppose not. But it was clever of you, using the River Vaitarna. I didn’t know you were still interested in religion.”
Darcy blinked. She’d been thinking about her parents’ faith for the last six months of rewrites. “So you didn’t mind that I used Lord Yama as a character?”
Her mother waved a hand. “He wasn’t really Lord Yama. He was just some boy.”
“Oh,” Darcy said. “But what about Mindy?”
The others were all watching carefully, though only Nisha knew about Annika’s murdered childhood friend.
“She was cute. And funny.”
“Funny? And cute?”
“Because she was such a little 1970s kid. I could just see those braids. And corduroys!” She turned to her husband. “Remember when you used to wear them all the time?”
He laughed. “I think I’ve still got a pair somewhere.”
“Um, but there wasn’t anything else familiar about her?” Darcy asked.
Annika Patel frowned. “How do you mean?”
Darcy sat there, not sure what to say. Kiralee had been right, of course—it was a terrible idea to talk about Rajani aloud, at least until the series was finished. But Darcy couldn’t believe that her mother had missed the parallel entirely.
It felt like a failure of her writing. Or maybe her mother simply wasn’t haunted by her past. Maybe she had left all that behind in India.
“I just thought you might have noticed . . .”
Darcy couldn’t go on. Bringing up Rajani at a crowded dinner table risked exorcising her from the quiet, gray place in Darcy’s mind where the story had been born. It risked every page of Untitled Patel being somehow different, somehow broken by the revelation.
But why was her mother being so clueless?
“What is it, dear?” Annika Patel asked.
The whole table was staring at her now. She had to say something, anything to protect her little ghost.
“Um, I have a girlfriend.”
The moment of silence wasn’t very long, but it felt timeless and huge and echoing. Everyone’s eyes shifted from Darcy to her parents, the only two at the table who hadn’t known already. They looked more baffled than anything else, but to be fair, the statement had been a giant non sequitur. Aunt Lalana was smiling with approval, at least.
Nisha was the first to speak. “Smooth, Patel.”
The spell broken, Darcy said, “I wanted to tell you guys. We’ve been together for a while now. I really like her.”
In a strange way, it felt like her first performance as an author on the stage of Avalon High School. There hadn’t been time to get nervous, so the words she needed had simply appeared in her mouth.
“A girlfriend? Well, I didn’t expect that.” Annika Patel’s smile looked skittish for a moment, then settled. “You know we love you, Darcy, always.”
“Of course I know,” Darcy said, and she always had, but the hearing of it struck her somehow. She skipped a breath, and the lenses of two unshed tears alighted on her eyes, making everyone at the table look sharper, clearer.