“One in Chicago, three in London.”
“London?” She tries to hide the surprise in her voice, and I nod.
I didn’t want to have to tell her this, but I was just taking advantage of every opportunity that came my way. I probably wouldn’t move back there anyway—I’m just exploring my options. “I wasn’t sure what was going to happen, you know, with us,” I try to explain.
“No, I understand. I’m just surprised, that’s all.”
I know what she’s thinking just by looking at her. I can practically hear her exact thoughts.
“I’ve been talking to my mum a little lately.” It sounds weird coming from my mouth, and it was even weirder to have finally picked up the phone when my mum called. I had been avoiding her up until two weeks ago. I haven’t exactly forgiven her, but I’m sort of working on trying not to be so angry about the whole mess. It doesn’t get me anywhere.
“You have? Hardin, that is so great to hear.” Her frown is gone, and she’s smiling so brightly at me that my chest literally fucking aches from the beauty of it.
“Yeah, a little.” I shrug my shoulders.
She is still smiling at me like I’ve just told her she won the damn lottery. “I’m so happy that everything is working out for you. You deserve everything good in your life.”
I’m not sure what to say to that, but I’ve missed her kindness so much that I can’t stop myself from reaching for her arm and pulling her into a hug. Her arms move to my shoulders, and her head drops down to my chest. I swear that a sigh escapes her lips. If I’m wrong, I’ll just pretend it was so.
“Hardin!” someone calls, and Tessa pulls away to stand next to me. Her cheeks are flushed, and she looks nervous again. Luke approaches with Kaci, a bouquet of flowers in his hand.
“I know you didn’t bring me fucking flowers,” I groan, knowing that it must have been his woman’s idea.
Tessa stands at my side, staring wide-eyed at Luke and the short brunette at his side.
“You know it. And I know how much you love lilies,” Luke says, shit-talking while Kaci waves to Tessa.
Tessa turns to me, confused, but smiling the most beautiful smile I’ve seen in the last two months.
“It’s so nice to finally meet you.” Kaci wraps her arms around Tessa’s body, and Luke tries to shove the hideous bouquet into my chest. I let the flowers fall to the floor, and he curses at me as we watch a horde of way-too-proud parents trample over them in passing.
“I’m Kaci, Hardin’s friend. I’ve heard so much about you, Tessa.” The woman withdraws a little to tuck one arm into Tessa’s, and I’m a little surprised when Tessa smiles back and, instead of looking to me for help, jumps into a conversation about wasted flowers.
“Hardin seems like a flower type of guy, right?” Kaci says, laughing, and Tessa giggles along. “That’s why he got those ridiculous leaves tattooed on him.”
Tessa raises a questioning brow. “Leaves?”
“They aren’t exactly leaves; she’s just giving me shit, but I did get a few new tattoos since I’ve seen you.” I’m not sure why I feel slightly guilty about that, but I do.
“Oh.” Tessa tries to smile, but I can tell it’s not authentic. “That’s good.”
The mood has shifted into slightly awkward territory, and as Luke tells Tessa about the new tattoos across the bottom of my stomach, he makes a big mistake: “I told him not to get them. The four of us were out, and Kaci got curious about Hardin’s tattoos and decided she wanted one.”
“Four?” Tessa blurts the word, and I can see the regret in her eyes when she asks.
I glare at Luke at the same time that Kaci digs her elbow into his side.
“Kaci’s sister,” Luke tells Tessa, trying to fix his fuckup, but making it worse.
The first time I hung out with Luke, we met Kaci for dinner. That weekend, we went to a movie, and Kaci brought her sister along. A few hangouts later, I realized that the woman was sporting a little infatuation and told them to call her off. I didn’t and still don’t want or need a distraction while waiting for Tessa to come back to me.
“Oh.” Tessa gives Luke her fake smile and stares off into the crowd.
Fuck, I hate the look on her face right now.
Before I can tell Luke and Kaci to fuck off and explain this shit to Tessa, Ken approaches and says, “Hardin, I have someone I would like you to meet.”
Luke and Kaci excuse themselves, and Tessa steps to the side. I reach for her, but she brushes me off.
“I need to find a restroom anyway.” She smiles and walks away after a quick hello to my father.
“This is Chris, the man I was telling you about. He’s head of publishing out at Gabber in Chicago, and he came all the way here to talk to you.” Ken smiles wide and grips this guy’s shoulder, but I can’t help but look for Tessa in the crowd.
“Yeah, thanks.” I shake the short man’s hand, and he launches into conversation. Between wondering what kind of shit Ken had to pull to get this guy here and worrying that Tessa won’t find the bathroom, I barely catch half of his offer.
Afterward, wandering around to every bathroom and calling her phone twice, I realize that Tessa has left without saying goodbye.
Chapter sixty-six
TESSA
September
Landon’s apartment is small, and the closet space almost nonexistent, but it works for him. Well, us. Every time I remind Landon that this is his apartment, not mine, he reminds me that I am living here now, in this apartment, in New York City.