"How do I stop doing that?" I asked honestly, admitting to my own weakness.
"As it is written in the Holy Scriptures, 'Not only so, but we also rejoice in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; perseverance, character; and character, hope. And hope does not disappoint us…'"
The messenger looked reflective for a moment and then added, "The more you experience the Creator at work in your life the more you will come to trust Him. The more you trust Him with more of yourself the more He is able to accomplish great things through you to not only benefit your life, but a multitude of others also. When the work that has been started in you is done it will bring back glory to whom all glory and honor are due, the Lord God Almighty. It is God that will accomplish the work Roric. It is for you to agree to do His will and thus, unlock the purpose He has for you in the plan of His making that, He has set down since before time began. You worry now Roric, but you will be stronger tomorrow than you are today, if you put your confidence in the Lord for He is righteous and able to save. Your hopeful faith will grow as you see that He is true to His word always and never changes or diverts from it."
There was moment of reflective contemplation then, which I broke by saying, "Even as I believe now what I do, I can expect to believe no less of what I already believe now as truth when tomorrow comes and as God is able I will see and do more than I can today when tomorrow comes, because I believe that He can work within me today what is needed in order to change what happens tomorrow."
The messenger nodded his head and smiled.
After a moment he asked, "Is there anything else you wish to know? Perhaps the writing on the sword that you have seen and wondered about?"
"Yes!" I responded quickly.
"This sword and others like it were forged long ago by righteous men, who read the words of the Creator into their making, which are the words you see briefly flash. They are written in a more ancient tongue than is known on your world today. The sword is very powerful as a weapon, but not in any spiritual context. The Word of God is the ultimate two edged sword and it can divide the soul from the spirit. This sword will serve you well for it has many unique properties crafted into its design that will be unveiled to you the more you use and possess it, but a word of warning on this matter. Beware the danger of becoming possessed by people, places or things, as all will lead to your destruction if you misplace the love of God for something that was made by Him instead of a relationship with Him. Now the time has come to part with you, but one last thing remains to be done, which is to impart the blessing that I was sent to bestow upon you. Roric if you will humble yourself before your Creator and always be faithful to the accomplishment of His will above all else then know this. The Lord will guard and watch over you jealously, as you are a rare treasure. He will establish your rule and no enemy will be able to stand before you for the Lord your God is mighty and He will fight your battles for you. Do not worry for the precious ruby you have thought lost from you for forever. She will return and become a crown of honor upon your head all the long days of your life and she will be called Blessed by her children. The Creator will bless you both with His loving kindnesses and you will have many children. If you are faithful, a long life will be yours too and you will see your children's children and perhaps beyond. If you remain faithful, your children too shall be blessed. You have ruled a castle and an army, but they will rule nations and many armies. All this will come to pass if you keep your eyes upon the Lord and stay on the path that is straight and narrow and that has been laid out before you to walk. Do what is right in the Creator's eyes always and abhor doing that which is evil and remember to love and it will go well with you. I will leave you for now, but I will return in the future."